Thursday, June 28, 2012

"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were"

This has always been one of my favorite all-time love quotes because it is so true, but yet it is not very easy to follow. It is so difficult to set someone you love free and give them space. Yes, you guessed it right, my boyfriend and I have been having some major problems lately; in fact, ever since I have met him, my life has been like a roller coaster. He has so many issues and I try my best to be part of his life and help him deal with them, but he is a very difficult person to handle, so stubborn, very negative and extremely childish. He is 5 years older than me, but sometimes I feel he is 15 years younger.

Personal life aside, I am very happy spiritually and really enjoying my new life as a born-again Christian. So many activities that I hardly ever get time to think back about my old life and even when I do, I feel less anger now and more sympathy for the people that I have left behind, that is, my family and friends who are still living in that hell hole called Islam. The pastor at my Bible Studies also commented on my change of attitude, which has changed drastically over the last few weeks. I feel more at peace with life and now when I think of my past, I don't feel that anger and bitterness that had been a part of me ever since I left Islam last October.

This morning I was talking to my best friend and partner in crime, the girl who also left Islam more or less the same time I did, and she said something so funny that I really have to tell you guys. She said a Muslim person is like a computer with a major System Error, and no matter how many times you reboot the computer, the system error message won't go away. It usually means the hard disk is nearly full and we need to close some programs to delete some files or get a bigger hard drive. When we try to load a file which is too large to store in RAM (random access memory). This is exactly the problem with the mind of a Muslim, it is so full of shit that there is no way to make space for anything else. So even when you try to tell them the truth, it just won't register. Why? Because their memory is full of that evil book which has an everlasting pernicious effect on their minds, the fucking Koran, the book of fairy tales and of course the other handbook, Hadeeth, which is basically a list of of Mo's OCD's and his phobias. So definitely, you will get a major System Error.

What is the solution? I don't know..I am not an IT person..

From now on, I will try to write at least once every week. I guess I have been far too occupied in my life to think about anything else. A new boyfriend who takes up a lot of my mental and emotional strength, then on top of that twice a week Church and then my Bible Studies. But I am not complaining, because I am actually very happy. But I have really missed you guys, and hopefully I won't be gone for long this time...


  1. Hi, glad you're well.

    It takes time (as I'm discovering for myself), but this helps me when I get upset.

    Living as Children of Light

    Ephesians 4: 17 So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. 18 They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. 19 Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.

    20 You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. 21 Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

    25 Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. 26 "In your anger do not sin"[d]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 and do not give the devil a foothold. 28 He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

    29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

  2. holy shit the fake blogger is back from the dead :)

    must be a slow day for spencer in the Islam hating World he inhabits

    gosh we missed you.....really, thanks for the laughs

    so whats been happenin with the fake MURTARD ?

    Sounds like jesus freak johnny has had enough of jihad booby spencer's can only wonder why, ROFLMAO

    can you imagine living with a complete fuckwit like use an IT having a BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH :)

  3. Who is the real enemy of the western world?

    Dear editor,

    It´s been 7 years that I try to help the Muslims by making them realize the fact of false prophecy claims of Muhammad and violent ideology of a religion which was never truly existed. But the journey of those 7 years was full of obstacles and fire surrounding me. Let me have the opportunity to share my views with you on my long war against Islam.
    Before I used to think that the enemy of the western world are those who follow the violent scripture (Quran) falsely created by Muhammad, but by the time I came to knew that the real enemy of the western and peaceful world are not those blind faith Muslims but indeed are those people who proudly call themselves westerners, but behind the scene help and favour to the Muslims by ignoring the truth.
    The enemies of our civilest society are not the Muslims. The enemies are the Non-Muslims who tolerate and even support the Islam instead of fighting it, who prevent to the people like us from fighting against the lie of Islam. These enemies are everywhere in the Western world, in the governments, in the jurisdiction, in the police organization and especially in the mass media. These enemies care for their diplomatic and economic relations with the Muslims states more than the future and safety of our future generations.
    We Non-Muslims who have understood the truth and try to fight the evil ideology of Islam are often beaten by political correctness, called Nazis racists and Anti Islamists, encounter repressions at the work place and social life, ostracized by families and friends, being watched regularly by national secret services and treated like criminals.
    Why? Just because we fight against something which is not true and dangerous for the future of our modern society? Is it so serious offence to help the billion of people to come out of a fake and extremely nonsense faith? Is it a crime to stop a religion which orders to kill, hate and discriminate in the name of god? Is it a crime against humanity if we fight for our rights of liberty of expression and saving our western values?
    No, these all facts are not crime, but still we are being treated worst than the Islamic jihadists are being treated. Instead of getting praised for our fight against injustice, we face a daily depression. Instead of putting our lives on the risk by opposing the Islam, we never get respected as we deserve. Instead of the fact that we are trying to change the world towards a better direction, we always get created the obstacles by our own non Muslim people who call themselves western and modern but under the table shake their hands with those Muslims leaders who follow Muhammad and work for fulfilling his cunning desires.
    At last as the conclusion I would like to say that all my fellow bloggers and activists who do a great job of exposing a false prophet and helping the world to understand the truth, are extra ordinary brave people who would be remembered in the future as historical heroes. I give my full support to them and give them my word that no matter what happens I will never give up until this world becomes free of Islam (Hopefully in my life). And I want all of you to take the same oath and promise me to create an unbreakable unity between us which can never be broken by the diplomatic or political oppression. We are a family which will fight together against the devil of Islam. Thank you very much.

    Your sincerely
    A proud Anti Islam Activist
    Imran Firasat (Spain)

    1. oh man we have a celeb in the house!
      How's it going killer?
      You carved up any indonesians recently!
      You still on the run from the people you owe money to?
      Surely all that bending over you should have earned a few quid by now?
      I bet your parents are proud of you!

  4. Jesus H Crist, another Loon comes crawling out of the woodwork :)

    Hey, Loser, glad to have you out of the should shack up with the fake blogger.......a match made in HELL, hahahaha

  5. "very negative"

    That doesn't sound very Christian... I thought being a Christian meant retaining hope of a better world, in spite of all the sh*t thrown at you?!

  6. "another Loon"

    And looks like a Loon from Loonwatch has lost his way and accidentally ended-up here. But at least the smell, horrible as it is, gives the rest of us entertainment. A sign of his desperation that his comments result in a ton of verbal diarrhoea poured out onto the threads!

  7. OMG.....another Islam Hating scum bag crawls out of the woodwork

    As you can see, the fake blogger has lost all credibility even amongst the die hard jw crowd.......they don't believe a word of the tripe spencer is peddling about his creation, LOL

    stay classy as a HATER :)

  8. Read all the previous BOLLOCKS posted here by the fake blogger, U FOOL.........from the get go, spencer was caught out badly even by his own supporters, how sad is that :)

  9. Welcome back. Sorry to hear you are suffering the ups and downs of modern Western romance. Still, it is better, I'm sure, than a forced marriage that you find odious. I hope things will improve for you. With prayer and time, perhaps your family will even come around to accepting you again.

    I am disappointed that you have lowered yourself to using crude epitaphs and foul language. It is a habit I struggled long and hard to try and overcome. But in all things we adapt and grow little by little. Just as God gives us light and knowledge at the rate he knows we are capable of receiving it. Godspeed your scripture studies and may our loving Father in Heaven give you vision and understanding. Remember that we fight, not against flesh and blood, but spirits and forces within our culture that pushes away for God, from life, and the happiness and freedom that Truth brings. Surround yourself with those that support and encourage you, those that have a testimony of the living Christ and manifest it with their daily lives. God bless and strengthen you.

  10. "I am disappointed that you have lowered yourself to using crude epitaphs and foul language"

    That is spencer coming through with his a tourettes sufferer......he can't help it :)

    1. Scouti - you are like a schizophrenic psycho conjoined twins with the liberated. I think you and her are the same people. Whenever she says she is having a great time your schizophrenic psychic kicks in and says totally opposite. Frankly it must be hellish to reconcile with your better half - namely liberated half and simultaneously your part is oozing with hate. It is all genetic runs in every inbreed Pakistani family. I forgot, your folks originated from Somalia - another piece of crapstan.

  11. Yo, Dar-schan, my backward ass mofo......where you been hiding sunshine ? just like the rest of the islam hating scum, you too have givin up rootin for poor spencer.........LOL

    It is sad indeed when spencer cant even generate sympathy for his own creation from his own support base (even now some still question is the fake blogger real - why is that Dar-schan ?)

    you think the fake MURTARD is havin fun.........almost FCUKED up as you are, hahahaha

    1. skouti - I don't hate Muslims and Robert doesn't hate Muslims. If any Muslim needs help Robert is there for them. It is your pretzel oriented logic doesn't seem to comprehend the simple fact about Robert that he is a very caring person. If anyone going to worship a first rate pedophile we all have problem. People like me are shocked that there appears to be 1.2 billion morons running around calling the psycho Mo a religious leader. Which part of the following sentence that you can't figure "Mo screwed around a way too much for my expectation to be a some spiritual leader - he screwed old, young, kids ..". The only difference between me and a Muslim is I am free to think with my God given brain. The Muslims have too many prohibitions. Frankly I have no idea why you are clinging to Islam. Of course that's your life, you are entitle to the daily misery it dishes out by the mother lode.

  12. Whoa and there you have it folks...........the sad existence of an islam hater personified..........they really don't hate muslims, no not at all........just totally misunderstood. LOL :)

    Gawd, it must kill them something chronic to know that no one takes them seriously, after all not as if spencer is an expert on Islam (proven beyond any reasonable doubt). poor spencer is a shyster and the fact he has suckered folks like dar-schan is priceless

    Still they do have a ceretain comedy value as evidenced by this blog

  13. skouti - the guy you should be loathing you worship, the guy you should be joining in hands to fight the loathsome culture you despise. I guess there is something in the water in the back-rivers of Somalia that changes the polarity of the neurons at birth of the people born in their vicinity - I can't explain your manner of thinking in another way.

    Not sure if you gonne follow my question - if you think your kinds are so smart, why are the Muslims drenching in misery where ever you see one?

  14. Irony anyone ??? Seriously..........that is so-ooooooo deep coming from our resident tool, dar-schan. you give that fcukwit spencer a run for his money

    Too much hatred dar-schan old bean...........remember you don't hate muslims do a tourettes sufferer, he can't help himself..............hehehehehe

  15. skouti, you scared of the truth like a sissy on a heavy duty roller coaster ride. Seriously, there is absolutely zilch added value in any one of your responses on these blogs.

    Examine yourself a little dude, take away that clowning around how do you go through a day with brain loaded of bull crap?

  16. Ah my favourite Islam hating Loon crawls out of the woodwork. Been too long dar-schan old is the Islam hating going these days ? Bet you must despair that no one takes you seriously......well I do, LOL :)

    After all look at this blog, the poor hapless spencer creates a fake apostate and guess what.....with a little help from yours truly.....yes I did my part.....he gets exposed. the funniest part is that his own base don't buy these blog at all. Even now some of them still question, is the fake murtard real......hilarious. Well at least spencer has dar-schan to defend him

    what was spencer thinking, more to the point does the fool actually think :) Come on spencer post some more bollocks about the fake murtard so we can have some more laughs

    1. skouti, you do seem to be joined at the hip with Liberated. This is an indifference-hate relationship. She is indifferent to you and you spew hate. But what can you expect from a follower of Mo. You believe you can get your 69 houris (why 69?) for perpetual non-stop coitus, if only you live your life of pure hate, and possibly murder some infidels.

      Get a life! (pun unintended)

      The analysis she has made of a corrupted operating system is very apt. A reboot is not sufficient for your crapped up head, you need a reformat.

  17. Wow, Richard.......glad to have out of the closet too sunshine......where you been hiding your worthless cracker ass son ?


  18. Hi I am new to your blog, I am an new apostate of Islam, I'd like to convert to Christianism as well but I have no idea how to do that could you please send me your email address to I would like to ask you some questions.
    Thank you in advance


    1. You can be a Christian in your heart and mind Rachid. You don't need an instruction set to convert to Christianity.

  19. Hey rachid, to convert its easy.
    All you have to do is find your local church, find the priest, pull your own pants down, bend over and let the priest wreck your back doors!
    Job done! Who knows you may even get a "road to Damascus moment"
    Any how, hope that helps!

    1. Rachid,

      Thats it, a few hail marys.......followed by a good rodgering by your local priest and you are a regular bona fide messed up member of christianity

      ROFLMAO......oh Anj, that was a classic :)

    2. Sounds like skouti and anj been completely screwed up by the same Imam in the same mosk, or all Mosks and all imams are the same?

      Have you stopped clowning around skouti - gone forth to write explicits? Is there anyone safe in Islamic societies from perversion of the third kind? You guys are real sick - require more than a psychotherapy to become normal.

    3. coming from dar-schmuck - IRONY ANYONE!!!

    4. from this thread only -

      skouti - "a few hail marys.......followed by a good rodgering by your local priest";

      skouti - ".where you been hiding your worthless cracker ass son ?"

      skouti - "poor spencer is a shyster"

      skouti - "Read all the previous BOLLOCKS posted here"

      skouti - "Yo, Dar-schan, my backward ass mofo......where you been hiding sunshine ?"

      skouti - "you think the fake MURTARD is havin fun.........almost FCUKED up as you are, hahahaha"

      I did not look very hard to collect your "intelligent quotes about life and love"

      skouti, you are one big sad case that should be requesting an urgent therapy - trust me I deal with cases like yours. You are suffering from verbal diarrhea. Here are the symptoms - you have the habit of talking crap often; You spit out shit every time you speak. Really skouti, you are this character. I nearly forgotten to mention your are a "good" Muslim. LOL.

  20. Rachid

    That's an interesting question.

    Why would you like to convert to Christianity?

  21. does anyone actually have had the person come back?