I don't know what it will take to make people believe in me and my story. I have been writing this blog for the last one year, and still some people doubt if I really exist and some even accuse me of being Robert Spencer's creation and that he made me up and he is the one writing the blog himself.
Now for a moment if we believe that assumption, it would mean my friend Bob has a very wild imagination to put himself in the shoes of a woman who happens to be an ex Muslim. Some people here accused me after reading my last blog that my English is too American. Well, what else do you expect? I have grown up with American TV shows. As my fiancé always says, trashy American soap operas, but I don't agree with him, because I owe what I am now to all these American TV shows which I have been watching since I was a toddler. Dallas, Falcon Crest, Dynasty, Magnum, Fall Guy, Knight Rider, Small Wonder, Bill Cosby show, the Jeffersons, Different Strokes, Bold and the Beautiful, Melrose Place, Friends, Beverly Hills, Sex and the City, Desperate Housewives, Grey's Anatomy, and the list goes on and on.
So just think using your brains for a change, if I don't get influenced with American TV and speak American English then what else do I use? Mandarin or Spanish? Its funny how people try to look for loopholes to prove that I am not real, and frankly I really don't know how am I going to prove to everyone that I exist and I am not Robert Spencer's creation. OK here is what I will do. I will call everyone personally, whoever is brave enough to give their number. I will call each and everyone of you. What do to say to that, my fearful friends?
You can email your phone number to kshakila13@gmail.com.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
The cat is out of the bag -- part two
I am overwhelmed with the response that I got on my last post, and it feels wonderful to know that people who I have never met and who don't even know my real name are so concerned about my safety. Well, rest assured that I am absolutely safe.. I am sure most of you must have guessed that I live in UAE, not Saudi or Kuwait or Iran, or worse still, Afghanistan and Pakistan. This country is too westernised and far too eager to be in the good books of dear old uncle Sam. There is a nightclub and bar in every area and alcohol is freely available, but you need a liquor permit for that, which, by the way, I happen to have, even though I have a Pakistani passport and am a Muslim on paper. There has never been a case of honor killing in this country and not likely to be one now. So please, my dear friends and well wishers, rest assured that I am fit and fine and my family are not going to kill me and jeopardize their future.
Both my brothers have good stable jobs and so do their wives. They live in luxurious apartments and their children attend private British schools. They both have four wheel drive cars and so do their wives. They travel to Europe or the far east every summer. Do you honestly think they would risk losing all that and get deported to Pakistan or put behind bars? There is no way they would forsake their heavenly luxurious lives for anything or anyone, and yes, that means not even for Allah or Mohammed. As far as my parents are concerned, they don't have a penny of their own. My dad is retired and mom a housewife all her life. My two brothers and I support them financially. By the way, I write cheques and give them to my parents every few months. In fact the last time I spoke to my mom, on Saturday, when I told her about my apostasy, the last thing she did before hanging up was to remind me that December is the last cheque she has. I assured her that I will write cheques for the next six months and send the envelope to her with my company driver. So you see, it's next to impossible that my family would kill the hen which lays the golden eggs.
Ok, let's go back to the conversation I had with my mom on Saturday. I made it very clear to her that I left Islam last year in October, four months before I met John, so there is no way they would link my apostasy to him. They know we been together since February and he came to the country in January, so his life is no danger at all. To be honest, the phone call with my mom didn't end that bad, at least not as bad as I had expected. In fact, I almost felt she actually understood why I did what I did. She was in a shock, no doubt, but she never said don't call me again. When I was telling her about Mohammed and how he made it all up and he invented Islam just for his own benefit and financial gain, she never said she doesn't want to hear about it. In fact she said she is too old to even consider doubting Islam and she wants to spend rest of her remaining life in peace. I didn't tell her openly that I am a Christian now lest she blames John for proselytizing me, but I did say to her that even though I may not believe in Allah and Mohammed anymore, I still do believe in God but he is just a different God from yours and he is more loving. He doesn't teach violence and he says to love everyone. I told her more than once that John has nothing to do with my leaving Islam and he is just a catalyst which helped me to come out, or else I might have ended up being a closeted apostate rest of my life. John's life is not in danger because now he is no longer in the picture for them. They are just very sad, disheartened and disappointed in me, that how can our daughter or sister do this after being such a pious Muslim all her life.
The phone conversation with my mom proved to be very constructive and I have a gut feeling it won't be the last.
The best thing out of all this is my mood swings are not as bad. I don't feel like crying all the time because that burden is finally off my chest. I no longer have to pretend anymore, in fact, the last two nights I have slept really well. I haven't felt this light hearted since I left Islam last year. I no longer have to pretend being a Muslim and I don't have to hear those lectures about going to hell and offending Allah, because now they know I don't believe in Allah or Mohammed anymore. Now my brothers and their wives won't forward me stupid hadeeth or ayaats because they know it means nothing to me anymore. So in a way, I am relieved that finally I can live an honest life, no more pretense.
I am actually happy...
Both my brothers have good stable jobs and so do their wives. They live in luxurious apartments and their children attend private British schools. They both have four wheel drive cars and so do their wives. They travel to Europe or the far east every summer. Do you honestly think they would risk losing all that and get deported to Pakistan or put behind bars? There is no way they would forsake their heavenly luxurious lives for anything or anyone, and yes, that means not even for Allah or Mohammed. As far as my parents are concerned, they don't have a penny of their own. My dad is retired and mom a housewife all her life. My two brothers and I support them financially. By the way, I write cheques and give them to my parents every few months. In fact the last time I spoke to my mom, on Saturday, when I told her about my apostasy, the last thing she did before hanging up was to remind me that December is the last cheque she has. I assured her that I will write cheques for the next six months and send the envelope to her with my company driver. So you see, it's next to impossible that my family would kill the hen which lays the golden eggs.
Ok, let's go back to the conversation I had with my mom on Saturday. I made it very clear to her that I left Islam last year in October, four months before I met John, so there is no way they would link my apostasy to him. They know we been together since February and he came to the country in January, so his life is no danger at all. To be honest, the phone call with my mom didn't end that bad, at least not as bad as I had expected. In fact, I almost felt she actually understood why I did what I did. She was in a shock, no doubt, but she never said don't call me again. When I was telling her about Mohammed and how he made it all up and he invented Islam just for his own benefit and financial gain, she never said she doesn't want to hear about it. In fact she said she is too old to even consider doubting Islam and she wants to spend rest of her remaining life in peace. I didn't tell her openly that I am a Christian now lest she blames John for proselytizing me, but I did say to her that even though I may not believe in Allah and Mohammed anymore, I still do believe in God but he is just a different God from yours and he is more loving. He doesn't teach violence and he says to love everyone. I told her more than once that John has nothing to do with my leaving Islam and he is just a catalyst which helped me to come out, or else I might have ended up being a closeted apostate rest of my life. John's life is not in danger because now he is no longer in the picture for them. They are just very sad, disheartened and disappointed in me, that how can our daughter or sister do this after being such a pious Muslim all her life.
The phone conversation with my mom proved to be very constructive and I have a gut feeling it won't be the last.
The best thing out of all this is my mood swings are not as bad. I don't feel like crying all the time because that burden is finally off my chest. I no longer have to pretend anymore, in fact, the last two nights I have slept really well. I haven't felt this light hearted since I left Islam last year. I no longer have to pretend being a Muslim and I don't have to hear those lectures about going to hell and offending Allah, because now they know I don't believe in Allah or Mohammed anymore. Now my brothers and their wives won't forward me stupid hadeeth or ayaats because they know it means nothing to me anymore. So in a way, I am relieved that finally I can live an honest life, no more pretense.
I am actually happy...
Saturday, November 3, 2012
The cat is finally out of the bag...
Oh yes, there have been some massive new developments. I have finally come out in the clean. Told my family today about my apostasy. I told my mother and my two sisters in law that I am no longer a Muslim, though I wish I had done this long ago. It's been a few hours since the bombshell, and I am sure they would have told my dad and brothers by now. It's been on my mind for some time, because I am sick and tired of pretending and living a dual existence, especially since my family had been sending me feelers, and as I mentioned last time, my brother and their wives wanted to get to know John better and were trying to accept him as part of the family, but all this was really not genuine, because they had an ulterior motive. They were assuming and expecting John would become a Muslim and do a nikah with me.
Today it was the last straw, when I ran into Sara and Uzma at the gym, my two sisters in law. They as usual had a message from my mom. She and dad apparently wanted to meet me somewhere and get some clarification about my faith. What clarification, I asked, to which they said my parents are concerned about my faith, if I am still as devout a Muslim as I used to be, and would John do a nikah with me in the mosque and would he recite the shahada in front of everyone. For a moment I was tempted to just go on with the charade that I have been playing for the last one year, but then I thought, what the hell. I am tired of living a lie and it's high time I come out with the truth. What's the worst that can happen? My parents have already disowned me, and perhaps they would disown me a grade higher, perhaps tell the world their daughter is dead, or worst come worse, they would just kill me, which is highly unlikely in this part of the world. They are old and retired and lived all their lives in the middle east. They don't want to spend the rest of their lives behind bars, or worse still, get deported to the God forsaken Pakistan, which is literally a hell on earth.
I knew my parents could not do much, so I just blurted out to Sara and Uzma that I am not a Muslim anymore. Gosh, you should have seen the look on their face, as if they had seen a ghost or something, they looked fearful and terrified and shocked. As if I said something so unbelievably shocking and demonic that hearing those words would bring a curse to their lives. They said, what? What do you mean? Please say you didn't really mean it. Please don't let us down like this. We have convinced your brothers to let it go and accept John, and we are trying to convince your parents as well. If this is true, then we won't be able to do anything, and if we tell this to our husbands, they would never let us speak to you again, and you would never be able to see your nieces and nephews again, because you will be literally dead to us.
I said that I have been living this lie, this facade for over a year, trying to please everyone and see that no one gets hurt, but I just can't do it anymore. They said they don't have the guts or courage to tell about my apostasy to my parents and that I should do it myself as soon as possible, because they are actually hoping for a reconciliation with John and me on the condition that John accepts Islam in front of everyone and does nikah, which is the Islamic marriage ceremony with me in the mosque. So I said fine. I will do it. I called my mom right then and there.
She was so shocked to hear from me after months, and I asked her, what clarification are you looking for? Sara and Uzma told me this morning, and I thought, it's about time we have a heart to heart conversation and an honest conversation for a change, with no lies or deceptions. Then she started pulling out all the skeletons from the closet, saying we trusted you so much but you let us down, you went against the teachings of Islam. You didn't just offend your parents, but offended Allah and his prophet, to which I said, Yes, about that, Mom, you see, I don't believe in Allah and his so called prophet anymore. I disowned Allah and Mohammed a year ago, and you know what? I have never been happier, Mom.
I swear you could have knocked her over with a feather. She was absolutely silent for a few seconds; then she said that they had started to doubt that I have moved away from my faith but they never thought for a moment that I would actually apostasize from Islam like that. I told her that even I never imagined I would give up Islam, as I was so sure of it all my life that this is the only truth, the only path that leads to heaven, but now that I know the truth, I feel I want to tell the whole world about it. I told her the whole story then how in the summer of 2011 I had got the English quran from Pakistan, and how the book seemed so fishy to me, nothing in it made sense. I told her that all my life I had merely read the quran without understanding it, but this time, I actually studied it like a scholar would, not only quran but the hadeeth and the sira and all that because one day I had accidentally stumbled upon www.alisina.org and then from there I got into jihadwatch and the rest, as they say, is history.
I told her that if she wanted, I would send her the links to those websites so she could check out the truth herself that Islam is nothing but pure deception, a cult created by none other but the self proclaimed prophet Mohammed. I asked her a question which left her speechless. I said, Mom, how can you say Islam is a religion of peace when the first thing it says is to kill anyone who leaves it. Isn't that ample proof that it's a cult, an evil cult? She said that she was not interested to hear about all that and she was very happy being a Muslim. We had a very long discussion on this, which I will write about in my next post. Till then, have a great weekend, friends. To be continued.
Today it was the last straw, when I ran into Sara and Uzma at the gym, my two sisters in law. They as usual had a message from my mom. She and dad apparently wanted to meet me somewhere and get some clarification about my faith. What clarification, I asked, to which they said my parents are concerned about my faith, if I am still as devout a Muslim as I used to be, and would John do a nikah with me in the mosque and would he recite the shahada in front of everyone. For a moment I was tempted to just go on with the charade that I have been playing for the last one year, but then I thought, what the hell. I am tired of living a lie and it's high time I come out with the truth. What's the worst that can happen? My parents have already disowned me, and perhaps they would disown me a grade higher, perhaps tell the world their daughter is dead, or worst come worse, they would just kill me, which is highly unlikely in this part of the world. They are old and retired and lived all their lives in the middle east. They don't want to spend the rest of their lives behind bars, or worse still, get deported to the God forsaken Pakistan, which is literally a hell on earth.
I knew my parents could not do much, so I just blurted out to Sara and Uzma that I am not a Muslim anymore. Gosh, you should have seen the look on their face, as if they had seen a ghost or something, they looked fearful and terrified and shocked. As if I said something so unbelievably shocking and demonic that hearing those words would bring a curse to their lives. They said, what? What do you mean? Please say you didn't really mean it. Please don't let us down like this. We have convinced your brothers to let it go and accept John, and we are trying to convince your parents as well. If this is true, then we won't be able to do anything, and if we tell this to our husbands, they would never let us speak to you again, and you would never be able to see your nieces and nephews again, because you will be literally dead to us.
I said that I have been living this lie, this facade for over a year, trying to please everyone and see that no one gets hurt, but I just can't do it anymore. They said they don't have the guts or courage to tell about my apostasy to my parents and that I should do it myself as soon as possible, because they are actually hoping for a reconciliation with John and me on the condition that John accepts Islam in front of everyone and does nikah, which is the Islamic marriage ceremony with me in the mosque. So I said fine. I will do it. I called my mom right then and there.
She was so shocked to hear from me after months, and I asked her, what clarification are you looking for? Sara and Uzma told me this morning, and I thought, it's about time we have a heart to heart conversation and an honest conversation for a change, with no lies or deceptions. Then she started pulling out all the skeletons from the closet, saying we trusted you so much but you let us down, you went against the teachings of Islam. You didn't just offend your parents, but offended Allah and his prophet, to which I said, Yes, about that, Mom, you see, I don't believe in Allah and his so called prophet anymore. I disowned Allah and Mohammed a year ago, and you know what? I have never been happier, Mom.
I swear you could have knocked her over with a feather. She was absolutely silent for a few seconds; then she said that they had started to doubt that I have moved away from my faith but they never thought for a moment that I would actually apostasize from Islam like that. I told her that even I never imagined I would give up Islam, as I was so sure of it all my life that this is the only truth, the only path that leads to heaven, but now that I know the truth, I feel I want to tell the whole world about it. I told her the whole story then how in the summer of 2011 I had got the English quran from Pakistan, and how the book seemed so fishy to me, nothing in it made sense. I told her that all my life I had merely read the quran without understanding it, but this time, I actually studied it like a scholar would, not only quran but the hadeeth and the sira and all that because one day I had accidentally stumbled upon www.alisina.org and then from there I got into jihadwatch and the rest, as they say, is history.
I told her that if she wanted, I would send her the links to those websites so she could check out the truth herself that Islam is nothing but pure deception, a cult created by none other but the self proclaimed prophet Mohammed. I asked her a question which left her speechless. I said, Mom, how can you say Islam is a religion of peace when the first thing it says is to kill anyone who leaves it. Isn't that ample proof that it's a cult, an evil cult? She said that she was not interested to hear about all that and she was very happy being a Muslim. We had a very long discussion on this, which I will write about in my next post. Till then, have a great weekend, friends. To be continued.
Friday, October 26, 2012
How Many Times Do I Have to Clarify?
Now how many times do I have to clarify why I do not respond to all your comments personally? Well, I will say it once again, that I live in a fucking Islamic country, and Robert Spencer himself advised me not to post on my blog myself, so each time I want to voice my views, I just write an article and then email it to Bob to just put it up on my blog so in case some psychopath Islamist wants to track me down to kill me, he can never do that by the IP or whatever way they are supposed to track people down.
I would like to thank everyone for their very inspiring and encouraging comments or at least most of them are, some like skouti really do not make much of a difference. As they say, you can’t shut up every barking dog on the street.
Regarding Islam being a peaceful religion, that is precisely what I believed in most of my life, and that is why I was a practising Muslim. I thought Islam means peace and that there is no compulsion in religion because that is what the Quran says. Little did I know that those peaceful verses were later abrogated by the harsh and deadly ones which ordered the Muslims to kill the non Muslims wherever they found them. I had no idea whatsoever that Islam encouraged adultery, that is, men can have sex with slave women and also they can beat up their wives. There was a hell of a lot which I did not know, hence I was proud being a Muslim. It is all thanks to Ali Sina and his website and then his book that I found out the truth about Islam and its founder, the self proclaimed prophet Mohammed. Then I read Robert Spencer’s book “The Truth about Mohammed,” which further made me decision firmer to leave Islam.
Now for the last one year exactly, I have been an apostate of Islam, which means no praying, no fasting, no quran recition (which by the way was so dead boring), no zakat, no nothing. I could not have been happier, but then there was something missing for which I was a bit sad, since I could not exactly pin point what it was till I met John and he showed me the path that leads to Christ. Ever since I have accepted Jesus Christ as my lord and saviour, I could not have asked for more. I am in total bliss since April this year and I owe it all to my John; not only did he show me the right path, but he has promised to hold my hand for as long as we both live. He has been extremely loving and supportive and even faced the wrath of my family with his unfaltering love and faith in me and in our relationship.
I would request all of you to go back and read some of my old articles in which I have mentioned about the hateful verses of the Quran which condemn the Jews and Christians, and how it commands the Muslims to either kill them or enslave them.
Islam is a hateful religion, sorry, I mean a cult which was created by a psychopath for his own benefit, and I am sure he never himself believed that it would survive for so many centuries.
I would request all Muslims to please wake up and see what you are doing. You are worshipping the devil himself. Mohammed was nothing but anti Christ himself and so was Hitler. There were so many similarities between the two, in fact Quran is quite a bit like Mein Kampf. Gosh, I just hope they are both burning in hell side by side… Amen.
I would like to thank everyone for their very inspiring and encouraging comments or at least most of them are, some like skouti really do not make much of a difference. As they say, you can’t shut up every barking dog on the street.
Regarding Islam being a peaceful religion, that is precisely what I believed in most of my life, and that is why I was a practising Muslim. I thought Islam means peace and that there is no compulsion in religion because that is what the Quran says. Little did I know that those peaceful verses were later abrogated by the harsh and deadly ones which ordered the Muslims to kill the non Muslims wherever they found them. I had no idea whatsoever that Islam encouraged adultery, that is, men can have sex with slave women and also they can beat up their wives. There was a hell of a lot which I did not know, hence I was proud being a Muslim. It is all thanks to Ali Sina and his website and then his book that I found out the truth about Islam and its founder, the self proclaimed prophet Mohammed. Then I read Robert Spencer’s book “The Truth about Mohammed,” which further made me decision firmer to leave Islam.
Now for the last one year exactly, I have been an apostate of Islam, which means no praying, no fasting, no quran recition (which by the way was so dead boring), no zakat, no nothing. I could not have been happier, but then there was something missing for which I was a bit sad, since I could not exactly pin point what it was till I met John and he showed me the path that leads to Christ. Ever since I have accepted Jesus Christ as my lord and saviour, I could not have asked for more. I am in total bliss since April this year and I owe it all to my John; not only did he show me the right path, but he has promised to hold my hand for as long as we both live. He has been extremely loving and supportive and even faced the wrath of my family with his unfaltering love and faith in me and in our relationship.
I would request all of you to go back and read some of my old articles in which I have mentioned about the hateful verses of the Quran which condemn the Jews and Christians, and how it commands the Muslims to either kill them or enslave them.
Islam is a hateful religion, sorry, I mean a cult which was created by a psychopath for his own benefit, and I am sure he never himself believed that it would survive for so many centuries.
I would request all Muslims to please wake up and see what you are doing. You are worshipping the devil himself. Mohammed was nothing but anti Christ himself and so was Hitler. There were so many similarities between the two, in fact Quran is quite a bit like Mein Kampf. Gosh, I just hope they are both burning in hell side by side… Amen.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
An update
It has been over three months since my last post, when I had written
about how my family had disowned me when I had introduced them to John
and told them about our relationship and our future plans. Well, a lot
has happened since then, and I don't know where to begin. As you guys
know, John left for UK first week of July, and then I joined him third
week, and then I had the most amazing holiday of my life. We stayed in
London for few days, then went to Wales, then back to England, then went
to France, Germany and Belgium, back to London and then back home to
the lousy Middle East. The good news is that John and I went to the
registrar's in London and applied for a marriage permit, which is valid
for a year, so now we are planning to get married next summer and then
go away on a long honeymoon to Spain and Italy.
Ever since we got engaged, my life has been absolutely bliss, to say the least. John is the most considerate and loving man I have ever known in my life. In the past I have dated a bunch of Muslim morons who didn't know the first thing about respecting a woman. I have been through so many abusive relationships that sometimes I feel like pinching myself to see whether I am dreaming because no one can be this nice to me. He treats me like a queen and showers me with so much love and affection that I almost forget that I don't have a family anymore. He is all the family I have and I feel so grateful to God that he sent him to my life at a time when I was totally lost and had no direction whatsoever. Not only did he show me the true path that leads to God, but he has held my hand since then.
All my life I dreamt of the perfect man, a perfect marriage and perfect kids. I dreamt how my parents would dote on their son in law and their grandkids. Little did I know that I would meet the perfect man of my dreams, but my parents would never accept him as part of their family -- let alone that, they even cut me out of their lives completely. It hurts like hell, but there is nothing I can do and frankly, I can't blame them, because it is not them, it the cult of bastard Mohammed which is making them do all this to their own daughter. Each and every day, I just feel so sad when I think of the good old days when I was growing up with so much love from my family, and now I am no more than a stranger to them, all because of one self proclaimed prophet and his imaginary Allah. It is not fair at all, and I just can’t help feel sorry for my parents for their stupidity. They are blind, deaf and dumb because they just can’t see beyond Islam, and there is no way I can ever tell them that Islam is false, it’s a man made religion and Mohammed was a psychopath, a liar, and you guys are cutting off ties with your own daughter for some lunatic who died 1400 years ago.
This is sad but true, I have a man who makes me very happy, but at the same time, I don’t have a family anymore. I just wish and pray to God that I get my own family very soon. Maybe once I get my child, I would not feel this void in my life.
Ever since we got engaged, my life has been absolutely bliss, to say the least. John is the most considerate and loving man I have ever known in my life. In the past I have dated a bunch of Muslim morons who didn't know the first thing about respecting a woman. I have been through so many abusive relationships that sometimes I feel like pinching myself to see whether I am dreaming because no one can be this nice to me. He treats me like a queen and showers me with so much love and affection that I almost forget that I don't have a family anymore. He is all the family I have and I feel so grateful to God that he sent him to my life at a time when I was totally lost and had no direction whatsoever. Not only did he show me the true path that leads to God, but he has held my hand since then.
All my life I dreamt of the perfect man, a perfect marriage and perfect kids. I dreamt how my parents would dote on their son in law and their grandkids. Little did I know that I would meet the perfect man of my dreams, but my parents would never accept him as part of their family -- let alone that, they even cut me out of their lives completely. It hurts like hell, but there is nothing I can do and frankly, I can't blame them, because it is not them, it the cult of bastard Mohammed which is making them do all this to their own daughter. Each and every day, I just feel so sad when I think of the good old days when I was growing up with so much love from my family, and now I am no more than a stranger to them, all because of one self proclaimed prophet and his imaginary Allah. It is not fair at all, and I just can’t help feel sorry for my parents for their stupidity. They are blind, deaf and dumb because they just can’t see beyond Islam, and there is no way I can ever tell them that Islam is false, it’s a man made religion and Mohammed was a psychopath, a liar, and you guys are cutting off ties with your own daughter for some lunatic who died 1400 years ago.
This is sad but true, I have a man who makes me very happy, but at the same time, I don’t have a family anymore. I just wish and pray to God that I get my own family very soon. Maybe once I get my child, I would not feel this void in my life.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Disowned
Disowned!!!! Yeah, that is what my family has done to me. They have
disowned me for life... Why? Because I am in love with a British
Christian man and want to spend the rest of my life with him. Isn't it
strange? How can parents be so ruthless towards their own flesh and
blood?
Well, as you all know, things were not going very good with John, he just wasn't willing to commit, so I sort of gave him an ultimatum. I said either you commit to me or else I am leaving this country for good and moving to the US, where I would be granted asylum based on my apostasy. He got paranoid and agreed to meet my family, since my parents are on a visit this summer and staying with my brothers, so I invited mom and dad for lunch two weeks ago to a restaurant and told them that I am bringing someone special whom I want them to meet and approve. They were a bit skeptical, but I think they almost assumed it would be a Pakistani or an Indian Muslim or maybe an Arab, but I am sure they never expected to see a white guy.
As soon as they entered the restaurant, John and I got up to greet them. To say that my parents were shocked beyond their wits would be the understatement of the year. Anyway, dad shook hands and we all sat down for lunch and I must say that dad did behave pretty good, he was civil to him and they both talked about cricket, food, England, the Middle East and the crazy Arabs and their erratic driving. It went on pretty smooth and then we all departed with a very civil goodbye. Then an hour later, while John and I were watching a movie at his place, mom called me up and said, "This is the last time I am calling you, because your dad and I disown you: from this day onwards, you are dead for us. You have really let us down by getting involved with a non Muslim. It's over, so please
never even try to get in touch." And she just hung up on me.
I was devastated and started crying uncontrollably. John could not believe it either, and poor guy has been extremely supportive since then. Last week my mom sort of came around, she called me up, but now she is pretending nothing happened. She always calls me when dad is not around, which I am sure means dad has no idea she is talking to me. Both my brothers are not talking to me either, but my sisters in law are, and they have been very nice about it. I guess women are easier to come around than men when it comes to matters of the heart.
John left for the UK last week and I then applied for a UK visit visa, which I just got on Thursday, and now the next step is to apply for a Schengen visa, as John and I plan to travel across Europe, but the most difficult part is how in the world am I going to explain to my family, friends, colleagues and everyone else that why the hell am I going away on a trip to the UK and Europe right in the middle of Ramadan. They don’t know that I am not a Muslim anymore and this time in Ramadan, for the first time in my life, I won’t be fasting, so that part is going to be tough.
I know one thing for sure, that I want to spend the rest of my life with this man and I can do anything, just about anything for him and our future together. I would like to request all my readers to please pray for us and that my family would eventually come around and accept me for what I am. So till next time, have a great week. Cheers.
Well, as you all know, things were not going very good with John, he just wasn't willing to commit, so I sort of gave him an ultimatum. I said either you commit to me or else I am leaving this country for good and moving to the US, where I would be granted asylum based on my apostasy. He got paranoid and agreed to meet my family, since my parents are on a visit this summer and staying with my brothers, so I invited mom and dad for lunch two weeks ago to a restaurant and told them that I am bringing someone special whom I want them to meet and approve. They were a bit skeptical, but I think they almost assumed it would be a Pakistani or an Indian Muslim or maybe an Arab, but I am sure they never expected to see a white guy.
As soon as they entered the restaurant, John and I got up to greet them. To say that my parents were shocked beyond their wits would be the understatement of the year. Anyway, dad shook hands and we all sat down for lunch and I must say that dad did behave pretty good, he was civil to him and they both talked about cricket, food, England, the Middle East and the crazy Arabs and their erratic driving. It went on pretty smooth and then we all departed with a very civil goodbye. Then an hour later, while John and I were watching a movie at his place, mom called me up and said, "This is the last time I am calling you, because your dad and I disown you: from this day onwards, you are dead for us. You have really let us down by getting involved with a non Muslim. It's over, so please
never even try to get in touch." And she just hung up on me.
I was devastated and started crying uncontrollably. John could not believe it either, and poor guy has been extremely supportive since then. Last week my mom sort of came around, she called me up, but now she is pretending nothing happened. She always calls me when dad is not around, which I am sure means dad has no idea she is talking to me. Both my brothers are not talking to me either, but my sisters in law are, and they have been very nice about it. I guess women are easier to come around than men when it comes to matters of the heart.
John left for the UK last week and I then applied for a UK visit visa, which I just got on Thursday, and now the next step is to apply for a Schengen visa, as John and I plan to travel across Europe, but the most difficult part is how in the world am I going to explain to my family, friends, colleagues and everyone else that why the hell am I going away on a trip to the UK and Europe right in the middle of Ramadan. They don’t know that I am not a Muslim anymore and this time in Ramadan, for the first time in my life, I won’t be fasting, so that part is going to be tough.
I know one thing for sure, that I want to spend the rest of my life with this man and I can do anything, just about anything for him and our future together. I would like to request all my readers to please pray for us and that my family would eventually come around and accept me for what I am. So till next time, have a great week. Cheers.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were"
This has always been one of my favorite all-time love quotes because it is so true, but yet it is not very easy to follow. It is so difficult to set someone you love free and give them space. Yes, you guessed it right, my boyfriend and I have been having some major problems lately; in fact, ever since I have met him, my life has been like a roller coaster. He has so many issues and I try my best to be part of his life and help him deal with them, but he is a very difficult person to handle, so stubborn, very negative and extremely childish. He is 5 years older than me, but sometimes I feel he is 15 years younger.
Personal life aside, I am very happy spiritually and really enjoying my new life as a born-again Christian. So many activities that I hardly ever get time to think back about my old life and even when I do, I feel less anger now and more sympathy for the people that I have left behind, that is, my family and friends who are still living in that hell hole called Islam. The pastor at my Bible Studies also commented on my change of attitude, which has changed drastically over the last few weeks. I feel more at peace with life and now when I think of my past, I don't feel that anger and bitterness that had been a part of me ever since I left Islam last October.
This morning I was talking to my best friend and partner in crime, the girl who also left Islam more or less the same time I did, and she said something so funny that I really have to tell you guys. She said a Muslim person is like a computer with a major System Error, and no matter how many times you reboot the computer, the system error message won't go away. It usually means the hard disk is nearly full and we need to close some programs to delete some files or get a bigger hard drive. When we try to load a file which is too large to store in RAM (random access memory). This is exactly the problem with the mind of a Muslim, it is so full of shit that there is no way to make space for anything else. So even when you try to tell them the truth, it just won't register. Why? Because their memory is full of that evil book which has an everlasting pernicious effect on their minds, the fucking Koran, the book of fairy tales and of course the other handbook, Hadeeth, which is basically a list of of Mo's OCD's and his phobias. So definitely, you will get a major System Error.
What is the solution? I don't know..I am not an IT person..
From now on, I will try to write at least once every week. I guess I have been far too occupied in my life to think about anything else. A new boyfriend who takes up a lot of my mental and emotional strength, then on top of that twice a week Church and then my Bible Studies. But I am not complaining, because I am actually very happy. But I have really missed you guys, and hopefully I won't be gone for long this time...
Personal life aside, I am very happy spiritually and really enjoying my new life as a born-again Christian. So many activities that I hardly ever get time to think back about my old life and even when I do, I feel less anger now and more sympathy for the people that I have left behind, that is, my family and friends who are still living in that hell hole called Islam. The pastor at my Bible Studies also commented on my change of attitude, which has changed drastically over the last few weeks. I feel more at peace with life and now when I think of my past, I don't feel that anger and bitterness that had been a part of me ever since I left Islam last October.
This morning I was talking to my best friend and partner in crime, the girl who also left Islam more or less the same time I did, and she said something so funny that I really have to tell you guys. She said a Muslim person is like a computer with a major System Error, and no matter how many times you reboot the computer, the system error message won't go away. It usually means the hard disk is nearly full and we need to close some programs to delete some files or get a bigger hard drive. When we try to load a file which is too large to store in RAM (random access memory). This is exactly the problem with the mind of a Muslim, it is so full of shit that there is no way to make space for anything else. So even when you try to tell them the truth, it just won't register. Why? Because their memory is full of that evil book which has an everlasting pernicious effect on their minds, the fucking Koran, the book of fairy tales and of course the other handbook, Hadeeth, which is basically a list of of Mo's OCD's and his phobias. So definitely, you will get a major System Error.
What is the solution? I don't know..I am not an IT person..
From now on, I will try to write at least once every week. I guess I have been far too occupied in my life to think about anything else. A new boyfriend who takes up a lot of my mental and emotional strength, then on top of that twice a week Church and then my Bible Studies. But I am not complaining, because I am actually very happy. But I have really missed you guys, and hopefully I won't be gone for long this time...
Friday, April 6, 2012
Life is sheer bliss
I don't recall being this happy ever before in my life like I have been last couple of months, thanks to my John who just came out of the blue and swept me off my feet. Not only has he flooded me with all his love and affection, but he also showed me the true path which leads to God, the real God. I have been reading a lot of Bible lately and today finally he took me to his church, because he felt that I am ready now. If you guys remember, I had written about my Catholic church experience before, where the priest had actually turned me away, saying they are not allowed to convert Muslims, and if they do, their church would be shutdown. Well, today I was expecting more or less the same kind of reaction, but the Protestant church was nothing like the Catholic church. The pastor was very kind and welcomed me with open arms. All the fellow worshippers were extremely kind and considerate, and they all assured me that my secret is safe with the church. I was there for 2 hours, listening to the sermon and then the songs, and then we all prayed. I just cannot explain in words how peaceful I felt afterwards. I made some new friends, who invited me to their home groups and bible study groups. I am officially a Christan now, and it makes me so proud so say that I accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and I believe he died for our sins. He truly is the son of God and there is no other way to God other than through Jesus.
I am so thankful to God that I never got married to some psychopath misogynistic Muslim loser, though I have to admit I was pretty close doing that couple of times, but then common sense prevailed and I changed my mind. I guess deep down inside, I always knew that something is really screwed up in Islam, and especially in Muslim men. John has really made me the happiest person on earth. Not only does he respect me as an individual who has a mind and opinion of her own, but actually treats me as an equal. None of that male chauvinism that prevails densely in Muslim men, and I am truly blessed that I have him in my life.
With this short note, I would like to wish all my readers a very Happy Easter. God bless.
I am so thankful to God that I never got married to some psychopath misogynistic Muslim loser, though I have to admit I was pretty close doing that couple of times, but then common sense prevailed and I changed my mind. I guess deep down inside, I always knew that something is really screwed up in Islam, and especially in Muslim men. John has really made me the happiest person on earth. Not only does he respect me as an individual who has a mind and opinion of her own, but actually treats me as an equal. None of that male chauvinism that prevails densely in Muslim men, and I am truly blessed that I have him in my life.
With this short note, I would like to wish all my readers a very Happy Easter. God bless.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Some clarifications
I have been pretty clear about my background, but people seem still be to confused. I do not live in Pakistan, as some people assume, but in the Middle East, in fact, in a pretty liberal city in the Middle East where I can openly date a good looking, Western Christian man and no one would even bat an eyelid. Over here, most of the local Arabs love fucking around Filipinos and other Far Eastern women so they are not exactly in the position to judge me.
I go with John to bars and clubs on most weekends. We drink, dance and basically paint the town red, and so far no one ever had any objection, so I really do not know from where people got the idea that I would be killed or stoned or something for dating a non-Muslim guy. Gosh, this is really insane. For heaven's sake, I do not live in Saudi Arabia. Here we get alcohol and even pork, you just need a liquor and pork permit for that. In fact, this very moment, I have a few bottles of vodka and gin in my cupboard. This place is really cool to live in, as long as you do not openly say or do something blasphemous.
I have gone through a lot in my life, from being a not so observant Muslim to a pretty ok kind of Muslim woman who used to pray five times a day and fasting the whole month of Ramadan for most of my life. Then last year, I went through one of the most difficult times of my life and I gave up Islam and became an apostate at first, then a deist and then even an agnostic. In fact, I was almost on my way to being an atheist. I was far too hurt, bitter, resentful and extremely angry at Islam and Mohammed for making me live in fear and guilt all my life. He had created a fear of Allah, the angry, cruel and sadist Allah in the hearts and minds of Muslims. We were not human beings, but zombies who had a blind faith in an evil man who claimed to be the last prophet of God. It was right then when I had almost lost faith in God that I met the love of my life, John. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He made me start believing in God again. He just asked me one thing: do you hate Allah? I said, yes I hate Allah and I hate that son of a bitch Mohammed. He said, why do you hate Allah? I said, because he does not exist and whatever qualities Mohammed claims he has, they are not Godly at all. Then he asked me one very simple question: that if there is a God, how would you want him to be? What kind of qualities would you like to be there in your God? I said if a God truly existed, he would be kind, compassionate and forgiving. He would never take pleasure in torturing his creation in eternal hell. To which he replied, that is exactly the God we believe in. Our God has all those and many more such qualities.
He did not make me change my mind overnight, but yes he had a very important role in making be a believer again. I am not really that angry anymore and I am actually pretty happy these days, and you know what, losers like skouti cannot do anything to change that... I don't care what others think. If they want to think that I do not exist, fine, let them. In fact, it might prove to be better for me in the long run. No one can accuse me of blasphemy or execute me for apostasy because I do not exist. I am Robert Spencer's alter ego. So guys, keep on thinking that Shakila Khan does not exist. It suits me just fine...
I go with John to bars and clubs on most weekends. We drink, dance and basically paint the town red, and so far no one ever had any objection, so I really do not know from where people got the idea that I would be killed or stoned or something for dating a non-Muslim guy. Gosh, this is really insane. For heaven's sake, I do not live in Saudi Arabia. Here we get alcohol and even pork, you just need a liquor and pork permit for that. In fact, this very moment, I have a few bottles of vodka and gin in my cupboard. This place is really cool to live in, as long as you do not openly say or do something blasphemous.
I have gone through a lot in my life, from being a not so observant Muslim to a pretty ok kind of Muslim woman who used to pray five times a day and fasting the whole month of Ramadan for most of my life. Then last year, I went through one of the most difficult times of my life and I gave up Islam and became an apostate at first, then a deist and then even an agnostic. In fact, I was almost on my way to being an atheist. I was far too hurt, bitter, resentful and extremely angry at Islam and Mohammed for making me live in fear and guilt all my life. He had created a fear of Allah, the angry, cruel and sadist Allah in the hearts and minds of Muslims. We were not human beings, but zombies who had a blind faith in an evil man who claimed to be the last prophet of God. It was right then when I had almost lost faith in God that I met the love of my life, John. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He made me start believing in God again. He just asked me one thing: do you hate Allah? I said, yes I hate Allah and I hate that son of a bitch Mohammed. He said, why do you hate Allah? I said, because he does not exist and whatever qualities Mohammed claims he has, they are not Godly at all. Then he asked me one very simple question: that if there is a God, how would you want him to be? What kind of qualities would you like to be there in your God? I said if a God truly existed, he would be kind, compassionate and forgiving. He would never take pleasure in torturing his creation in eternal hell. To which he replied, that is exactly the God we believe in. Our God has all those and many more such qualities.
He did not make me change my mind overnight, but yes he had a very important role in making be a believer again. I am not really that angry anymore and I am actually pretty happy these days, and you know what, losers like skouti cannot do anything to change that... I don't care what others think. If they want to think that I do not exist, fine, let them. In fact, it might prove to be better for me in the long run. No one can accuse me of blasphemy or execute me for apostasy because I do not exist. I am Robert Spencer's alter ego. So guys, keep on thinking that Shakila Khan does not exist. It suits me just fine...
Monday, March 19, 2012
"It is best to love wisely, no doubt: but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all."
Hello, my dear friends. It has been indeed a very long time since I posted something on my blog. I guess I have been very busy elsewhere. Yeah, yeah you guys would want to know what else could be more important than my blog. Well, let me just say that I have met someone really really special and he has been the center of my attention lately. In fact, I tried writing several times but just could not get past the writer's block. I guess this is what love does to you. Though I cannot say for sure it's really love, but yes, I am totally besotted with him. I had often wondered why I am still single and why did I always end up meeting the wrong guy, in fact it was more like a pattern. The same kind of guy and the same kind of problems, so obviously it always ended on more or less the same note. But this time things have been different because this time the gentleman in question is not a Muslim. This is precisely why I am actually happy in a relationship and I don't go around saying "I hate men. All men are bastards." Because he is different, he is not like a typical man because he is not a male chauvinist Muslim man. He is a very pious, practising Christian man and he is trying his level best to show me the path to Christ. May God help him in his noble mission.
A lot has been happening at the work front lately. One of my stupid colleagues, yes, yes, the stupid Egyptian guy, came over to my office the other day rather excited and said, "Guess what Shakila, I have discovered something really unbelievable in the Quran. Something that no one has ever realized before me."
I was like, "Wow Ahmed, you never cease to amaze me. So tell me, what is it this time?"
He said, "Do you know about Stem Cell?"
I said, "Yes, I do, and I am pretty much interested in it and read a lot about it since it was in the news a lot lately."
He said, "Exactly, it has been in the news for the last decade or so, but you know something? Quran mentions about Stem Cell 14 centuries ago."
I was totally flabbergasted, to say the least. I almost gulped on my coffee and said, "Wow, Ahmed, amazing. Please tell me more." He then quoted the following verse of the Quran in Arabic and then translated it into English:
Surah Al-Hajj
O mankind! if ye are in doubt concerning the Resurrection, then lo! We have created you from dust, then from a drop of seed, then from a clot, then from a little lump of flesh shapely and shapeless, that We may make (it) clear for you. And We cause what We will to remain in the wombs for an appointed time, and afterward We bring you forth as infants, then (give you growth) that ye attain your full strength. And among you there is he who dieth (young), and among you there is he who is brought back to the most abject time of life, so that, after knowledge, he knoweth naught. And thou (Muhammad) seest the earth barren, but when We send down water thereon, it doth thrill and swell and put forth every lovely kind (of growth). (5)
Yeah, I know what you guys are thinking. I was as stumped as you are. For the life of me, I cannot fathom where the hell is Stem Cell mentioned in the above verse, but no, the ever-so-wise Mr. Ahmed thinks that the verse speaks very clearly about the Stem Cell. Hmmmm... Didn't I always say that Muslims are totally weird? And that is actually an understatement.
Well, all I can say is that I am so thankful to God almighty that I never actually got married to a lunatic Muslim man, though I have to admit, I did come quite close to it a few times. But thank God, my common sense had always kicked in at the right time, though I never really knew at that time why I was refusing the man in question. Now that I am not a blind Muslim woman anymore, I know it beyond any doubt that I would have never been happy with a Muslim MCP. I kind of feel sorry for my mom, my grand moms, my aunts, cousins and my friends for having to live through the hell...
I really do not want to waste any more of my energies on all these negative depressing thoughts, because I am really very happy these days.. First of all, I am totally and completely out of the evil cult called Islam, and secondly I am so happy with John... He is surely the best thing that has ever happened to me...
I can't promise but I will try my level best not to take such a long sabbatical from my blog again. Love you all...
A lot has been happening at the work front lately. One of my stupid colleagues, yes, yes, the stupid Egyptian guy, came over to my office the other day rather excited and said, "Guess what Shakila, I have discovered something really unbelievable in the Quran. Something that no one has ever realized before me."
I was like, "Wow Ahmed, you never cease to amaze me. So tell me, what is it this time?"
He said, "Do you know about Stem Cell?"
I said, "Yes, I do, and I am pretty much interested in it and read a lot about it since it was in the news a lot lately."
He said, "Exactly, it has been in the news for the last decade or so, but you know something? Quran mentions about Stem Cell 14 centuries ago."
I was totally flabbergasted, to say the least. I almost gulped on my coffee and said, "Wow, Ahmed, amazing. Please tell me more." He then quoted the following verse of the Quran in Arabic and then translated it into English:
Surah Al-Hajj
O mankind! if ye are in doubt concerning the Resurrection, then lo! We have created you from dust, then from a drop of seed, then from a clot, then from a little lump of flesh shapely and shapeless, that We may make (it) clear for you. And We cause what We will to remain in the wombs for an appointed time, and afterward We bring you forth as infants, then (give you growth) that ye attain your full strength. And among you there is he who dieth (young), and among you there is he who is brought back to the most abject time of life, so that, after knowledge, he knoweth naught. And thou (Muhammad) seest the earth barren, but when We send down water thereon, it doth thrill and swell and put forth every lovely kind (of growth). (5)
Yeah, I know what you guys are thinking. I was as stumped as you are. For the life of me, I cannot fathom where the hell is Stem Cell mentioned in the above verse, but no, the ever-so-wise Mr. Ahmed thinks that the verse speaks very clearly about the Stem Cell. Hmmmm... Didn't I always say that Muslims are totally weird? And that is actually an understatement.
Well, all I can say is that I am so thankful to God almighty that I never actually got married to a lunatic Muslim man, though I have to admit, I did come quite close to it a few times. But thank God, my common sense had always kicked in at the right time, though I never really knew at that time why I was refusing the man in question. Now that I am not a blind Muslim woman anymore, I know it beyond any doubt that I would have never been happy with a Muslim MCP. I kind of feel sorry for my mom, my grand moms, my aunts, cousins and my friends for having to live through the hell...
I really do not want to waste any more of my energies on all these negative depressing thoughts, because I am really very happy these days.. First of all, I am totally and completely out of the evil cult called Islam, and secondly I am so happy with John... He is surely the best thing that has ever happened to me...
I can't promise but I will try my level best not to take such a long sabbatical from my blog again. Love you all...
Sunday, February 26, 2012
The Bourne Supremacy
Even when I was a Muslim, I often used to wonder why the hell these Muslims are so proud of themselves and their legacy. They have always taken it for granted that they would be the ones to enter heaven and the rest would burn in hell fire for eternity. I used to wonder how could the God almighty judge someone just based on their beliefs and not their good deeds. In school, my teachers used to tell us that no matter how many crimes a Muslim person committed, as long as he or she did not commit the unthinkable crime 'Shirk', he would eventually enter paradise, once he had done with his share of punishment in his temporary abode, the hell. In other words, a Muslim has a confirmed one way ticket to heaven, whereas a Non-Muslim is doomed to be in hell for eternity.
Last weekend, I was out of town visiting my uncle and his family for couple of days, and to say that it was sheer torture is an understatement. Each time I meet my family and relatives, I realize it more and more that they are totally nuts, psychopaths in fact, just like their cult leader Mo. One day at breakfast my cousin was reading out some article about Bill Gates and his philanthropic acts. Between 2007 and 2011, he has spent 28 billion US dollars in charity and saved millions of lives. I was obviously very pleased and praised him wholeheartedly, to which my uncle said with a huge sigh, "It is a real pity that such good deeds of his will go in vain, because no matter what he does, he would eventually burn in hellfire for eternity unless he realizes the truth before he dies and says the shahada". I was really shocked, to say the least. How could my favorite uncle, a top notch surgeon, say such a crappy thing about someone? Then I remembered that no matter how educated you are, once you are a Muslim, you are in some ways a brain dead zombie. As if there are two compartments in a Muslim man's mind: one deals with wordly affairs, logic, education, knowledge, intelligence and intellect, whereas the other compartment is totally one tracked, having an irrational obsession with Mohammed and his absurd idiosyncrasies. There was a lot that I wanted to say to my uncle, but then I thought, what the heck, it won't make a difference anyway, plus it would lead to an argument, which I did not want to get into lest I arouse his suspicion regarding my beliefs.
Then today at work, I came across something really weird. I was visiting a colleague in my building whom I had not seen for some time. We had lunch together and then I went to use the restroom. As soon as I saw the huge sign on the bathroom door, I just burst into a hysterical laugh. There was a Quranic ayaat with English translation and a hadeeth below as well. The ayaat went like this: "Oh Allah, please protect me from the devil who dwells in dirty places" and then the hadeeth below said enter with your right foot as prophet used to do it. Once I was done, I saw a similar sign inside the toilet door saying something similarly stupid, thanking Allah for his blessing and then another hadeeth saying please exit using your left foot first... I was flabbergasted, to say the least.. A multi national company posting such embarrassingly lame signs outside the public toilet is really pushing it too far.
My idiot Egyptian colleague was telling me the other day how fortunate we are that we are born Muslims and we should thank Allah the almighty in whatever way we can that he has given us the special status of being Muslims and that he has made paradise just for us. He went on about how damned the Christians and Jews are because they had a chance back then and even now they have a chance to see the truth but they are blind, deaf and dumb.
I remember when I was in school, we had a few Christian and Hindu students back then in late 1980's. I attended the local Pakistani school here, which also had a few non Muslim Pakistani students, which comprise a very small minority. It used to be around 20 percent at the time of partition, but now, thanks to the forced conversion, torture and rape of non Muslim women by Muslim men, they have come down to merely 2 percent of the total population of Pakistan. Anyway, those few girls and boys in my class who were not among us had to face a lot of crap in class, even from the teachers, who treated them very shabbily. They would never miss an opportunity to insult them and make them feel subjugated, as per the Quranic law. Even back then, I used to feel terribly sorry for my friend Sunita and her cousin Rohan, who were Pakistani Hindus. Then there were two Christian girls, Susan and Rose, who constantly had to defend themselves and their faith and their Lord Jesus.
The sole problem of Muslims all over the world is their inborn pride, their sense of superiority. They feel and they believe with all their conviction that they are the chosen ones who would surely end up in heaven reclining on comfortable couches made of gold and wearing silk and brocade. Drinking from the ever flowing rivers of wine, milk and honey. Screwing 72 whores, and if you are gay, you get boys as white as pearl to satisfy your deepest and darkest fantasies. Now, that is what I call the eternal paradise.
I always thought that I am not capable of hating anyone in this world, because I believed that hate is a very strong emotion and I never felt so strongly about anyone. I either loved, liked or disliked someone, or maximum, I would detest or abhor, but hate was something I never used for anyone until recently, when I experienced this strong sense of hatred deep down inside my very being, consuming every part of my heart, soul and mind. That hatred is for none other than Mohammed, the very same person whom I used to love with so much conviction that he was the most perfect human being ever born on the face of the earth. I don't think that anyone or anything could have inflicted so much pain, that it actually makes me cry out loud every day and every night. I just wish I could go to Medina, dig up his grave, pull him out and set his bones or whatever of him remains on fire. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him from the core of my heart. If it weren't for him and his crazy make believe religion, the world would have been a very peaceful place indeed - a heaven on earth.
Last weekend, I was out of town visiting my uncle and his family for couple of days, and to say that it was sheer torture is an understatement. Each time I meet my family and relatives, I realize it more and more that they are totally nuts, psychopaths in fact, just like their cult leader Mo. One day at breakfast my cousin was reading out some article about Bill Gates and his philanthropic acts. Between 2007 and 2011, he has spent 28 billion US dollars in charity and saved millions of lives. I was obviously very pleased and praised him wholeheartedly, to which my uncle said with a huge sigh, "It is a real pity that such good deeds of his will go in vain, because no matter what he does, he would eventually burn in hellfire for eternity unless he realizes the truth before he dies and says the shahada". I was really shocked, to say the least. How could my favorite uncle, a top notch surgeon, say such a crappy thing about someone? Then I remembered that no matter how educated you are, once you are a Muslim, you are in some ways a brain dead zombie. As if there are two compartments in a Muslim man's mind: one deals with wordly affairs, logic, education, knowledge, intelligence and intellect, whereas the other compartment is totally one tracked, having an irrational obsession with Mohammed and his absurd idiosyncrasies. There was a lot that I wanted to say to my uncle, but then I thought, what the heck, it won't make a difference anyway, plus it would lead to an argument, which I did not want to get into lest I arouse his suspicion regarding my beliefs.
Then today at work, I came across something really weird. I was visiting a colleague in my building whom I had not seen for some time. We had lunch together and then I went to use the restroom. As soon as I saw the huge sign on the bathroom door, I just burst into a hysterical laugh. There was a Quranic ayaat with English translation and a hadeeth below as well. The ayaat went like this: "Oh Allah, please protect me from the devil who dwells in dirty places" and then the hadeeth below said enter with your right foot as prophet used to do it. Once I was done, I saw a similar sign inside the toilet door saying something similarly stupid, thanking Allah for his blessing and then another hadeeth saying please exit using your left foot first... I was flabbergasted, to say the least.. A multi national company posting such embarrassingly lame signs outside the public toilet is really pushing it too far.
My idiot Egyptian colleague was telling me the other day how fortunate we are that we are born Muslims and we should thank Allah the almighty in whatever way we can that he has given us the special status of being Muslims and that he has made paradise just for us. He went on about how damned the Christians and Jews are because they had a chance back then and even now they have a chance to see the truth but they are blind, deaf and dumb.
I remember when I was in school, we had a few Christian and Hindu students back then in late 1980's. I attended the local Pakistani school here, which also had a few non Muslim Pakistani students, which comprise a very small minority. It used to be around 20 percent at the time of partition, but now, thanks to the forced conversion, torture and rape of non Muslim women by Muslim men, they have come down to merely 2 percent of the total population of Pakistan. Anyway, those few girls and boys in my class who were not among us had to face a lot of crap in class, even from the teachers, who treated them very shabbily. They would never miss an opportunity to insult them and make them feel subjugated, as per the Quranic law. Even back then, I used to feel terribly sorry for my friend Sunita and her cousin Rohan, who were Pakistani Hindus. Then there were two Christian girls, Susan and Rose, who constantly had to defend themselves and their faith and their Lord Jesus.
The sole problem of Muslims all over the world is their inborn pride, their sense of superiority. They feel and they believe with all their conviction that they are the chosen ones who would surely end up in heaven reclining on comfortable couches made of gold and wearing silk and brocade. Drinking from the ever flowing rivers of wine, milk and honey. Screwing 72 whores, and if you are gay, you get boys as white as pearl to satisfy your deepest and darkest fantasies. Now, that is what I call the eternal paradise.
I always thought that I am not capable of hating anyone in this world, because I believed that hate is a very strong emotion and I never felt so strongly about anyone. I either loved, liked or disliked someone, or maximum, I would detest or abhor, but hate was something I never used for anyone until recently, when I experienced this strong sense of hatred deep down inside my very being, consuming every part of my heart, soul and mind. That hatred is for none other than Mohammed, the very same person whom I used to love with so much conviction that he was the most perfect human being ever born on the face of the earth. I don't think that anyone or anything could have inflicted so much pain, that it actually makes me cry out loud every day and every night. I just wish I could go to Medina, dig up his grave, pull him out and set his bones or whatever of him remains on fire. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him from the core of my heart. If it weren't for him and his crazy make believe religion, the world would have been a very peaceful place indeed - a heaven on earth.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
A man's best friend or foe?
Hey friends, how have you been? First of all I would like to explain my extended leave of absence from the blog, as I was travelling and just returned Friday night. I just went down to Karachi for a week to see my parents and also to attend a distant cousin's wedding. She was very close to me at one time. But this time I was shocked to see the change in her. She has actually started wearing hijab because her to-be husband wanted her to do that. She did not even seem to mind, because she thinks that her husband is opening a door for her in heaven, since he will definitely be going there himself. The wedding was extremely simple, with no extravagant rituals, which is the norm in a typical Pakistani wedding. No music, no dancing, no nothing. Apparently, my cousin's in-laws think that it is a sin to perform any such ritual in a wedding, and that a wedding should be performed as per the Sunnah.
I found it a little difficult to adjust in Karachi this time, and I just felt like packing my bags and flying back home every day. It is not easy to pretend being a Muslim among so many staunch and practising Muslims, but thankfully, I am not a very bad actress, even if I may say so myself. I carried out the act pretty convincingly. I even used to lay down the prayer mat on the floor and sit on it while humming a song to myself. LOL. Oh boy, I am so glad to be back to my normal life where I can be myself and of course back to writing my blog.
Ever since I gave up Islam and became an apostate, my life is pretty simple, easy and enjoyable. I mean I can drink with friends without feeling guilty and I can have a normal love life without the fear of eternal hell fire. On one side, this cannot make up for the time lost, but at least I can make the most of what I have, the remaining few years of my life. I am not sure whether there is an eternal life or not, and perhaps this could be the only life that I ever get. That is why I want to be happy, as happy as I could get. I have lived enough in depression, guilt and fear.
This evening, while I was having a stroll in the park, I ran into my good old Australian neighbors, a very delightful couple in their late 50's who were out with their dog for his daily walk. The last time I had bumped into them, I was a bit averse to dogs. Even though I had given up Islam few months ago, still I could not make myself touch a dog, I was just too paranoid. But today, I had this sudden urge to bend down and pat him, and I whispered into his ears, "I am sorry, Benny, I am so sorry for the way I have always treated you and hated you for no fault of yours". I felt sick to my stomach thinking how could I have hated such a lovely and friendly little animal just because some psychopath lunatic said so. I felt extremely ashamed of myself, and I felt as if Benny could see the remorse in my eyes because he actually gave me a friendly little bark which meant, It's all right, Shakila, I forgive you. Then I looked up at the old couple who were staring at me as if I had just french kissed their dog or something. It sure was a funny sight. I just can't stop laughing each time I think of that moment and the look on their face. But I have to admit, I do feel wonderful, as if I have made peace with all the dogs in the world. I was probably 12 years old when my Islamic Studies teacher told me that our prophet hated dogs and she even quoted a hadeeth saying Abdullah (b. Umar) reported: "Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) ordered the killing of dogs and we would send (men) in Medina and its corners and we did not spare any dog that we did not kill, so much so that we killed the dog that accompanied the wet she-camel belonging to the people of the desert." (Sahih Muslim, Book 010, Number 3811).
I guess many Muslims don't have the ability to think and I am really ashamed to admit that perhaps I was one of them too. Why else would I actually hate poor little innocent dogs just because I was told to do so? I guess it means that Muslims really do not have a mind of their own and are totally incapable of thinking rationally and logically, and those who actually dare to do so end up being like me. An Apostate of Islam.
I found it a little difficult to adjust in Karachi this time, and I just felt like packing my bags and flying back home every day. It is not easy to pretend being a Muslim among so many staunch and practising Muslims, but thankfully, I am not a very bad actress, even if I may say so myself. I carried out the act pretty convincingly. I even used to lay down the prayer mat on the floor and sit on it while humming a song to myself. LOL. Oh boy, I am so glad to be back to my normal life where I can be myself and of course back to writing my blog.
Ever since I gave up Islam and became an apostate, my life is pretty simple, easy and enjoyable. I mean I can drink with friends without feeling guilty and I can have a normal love life without the fear of eternal hell fire. On one side, this cannot make up for the time lost, but at least I can make the most of what I have, the remaining few years of my life. I am not sure whether there is an eternal life or not, and perhaps this could be the only life that I ever get. That is why I want to be happy, as happy as I could get. I have lived enough in depression, guilt and fear.
This evening, while I was having a stroll in the park, I ran into my good old Australian neighbors, a very delightful couple in their late 50's who were out with their dog for his daily walk. The last time I had bumped into them, I was a bit averse to dogs. Even though I had given up Islam few months ago, still I could not make myself touch a dog, I was just too paranoid. But today, I had this sudden urge to bend down and pat him, and I whispered into his ears, "I am sorry, Benny, I am so sorry for the way I have always treated you and hated you for no fault of yours". I felt sick to my stomach thinking how could I have hated such a lovely and friendly little animal just because some psychopath lunatic said so. I felt extremely ashamed of myself, and I felt as if Benny could see the remorse in my eyes because he actually gave me a friendly little bark which meant, It's all right, Shakila, I forgive you. Then I looked up at the old couple who were staring at me as if I had just french kissed their dog or something. It sure was a funny sight. I just can't stop laughing each time I think of that moment and the look on their face. But I have to admit, I do feel wonderful, as if I have made peace with all the dogs in the world. I was probably 12 years old when my Islamic Studies teacher told me that our prophet hated dogs and she even quoted a hadeeth saying Abdullah (b. Umar) reported: "Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) ordered the killing of dogs and we would send (men) in Medina and its corners and we did not spare any dog that we did not kill, so much so that we killed the dog that accompanied the wet she-camel belonging to the people of the desert." (Sahih Muslim, Book 010, Number 3811).
I guess many Muslims don't have the ability to think and I am really ashamed to admit that perhaps I was one of them too. Why else would I actually hate poor little innocent dogs just because I was told to do so? I guess it means that Muslims really do not have a mind of their own and are totally incapable of thinking rationally and logically, and those who actually dare to do so end up being like me. An Apostate of Islam.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Marriage and me
Each time I see a Muslim woman dressed up in the complete Islamic burqa with only her dead expressionless eyes piercing through the black face veil, I cannot but help feel extremely helpless and distressed. It breaks my heart to see a woman being treated worse than an animal. On top of that, they actually feel they are doing the right thing by subjugating themselves to the tyranny of their husbands or fathers.
So many of my friends have been forcefully married off against their will to their cousins or other men chosen by their families. These women have been suffering for years and probably would stay in a loveless marriage for as long as they live, mainly because they do not have a a choice. Period.
I have always been a very unconventional and progressive young woman with very radical views. My dad always said that he really pities the guy who will end up getting married to me. I guess my dad won't have to deal with that after all, since I am not anywhere close to getting married even at 35. I have always been a feminist as far as I can remember, and that is precisely why I could never imagine myself in a subservient role of a Muslim man's docile wife.
I have had plenty of suitors in the past, but somehow it never worked out with any of them. At first, I thought it was my destiny, or rather, my misfortune, or maybe there was something wrong with me, or that I lack what a man essentially wants in a woman, but now I realize that it was a lack of compassion from their side and an absolute absence of sensitivity and social acumen.
I have been accused rather pointedly by several well-wishers on my blog why have I not been married and why didn't my family ever try to get fix me up in an arranged marriage. It is not that they did not try or that I did not get a proposal, but more often than not, the man always ran away in the opposite direction after just one meeting or conversation with me. The reason would always be the same. The girl is too liberal, open minded and blunt... Well, that is the way I have always been, free spirited, uninhibited and straightforward. If a man cannot handle me, then he is not a man enough, at least not for me. I could never see myself getting married to someone who has an unwritten prenuptial contract saying his wife should wear the hijab or that she should quit working and stay at home full time looking after his mom and dad. I have never listened to my parents, so how could a man expect me to submit to him?
I have a mind of my own and I always make my own decisions. Sometimes, a choice may not be favorable, but still it is my choice, and I sincerely believe that we learn from our mistakes. There is absolutely nothing that I have ever regretted in my life, and I hope that there never will be.....
So many of my friends have been forcefully married off against their will to their cousins or other men chosen by their families. These women have been suffering for years and probably would stay in a loveless marriage for as long as they live, mainly because they do not have a a choice. Period.
I have always been a very unconventional and progressive young woman with very radical views. My dad always said that he really pities the guy who will end up getting married to me. I guess my dad won't have to deal with that after all, since I am not anywhere close to getting married even at 35. I have always been a feminist as far as I can remember, and that is precisely why I could never imagine myself in a subservient role of a Muslim man's docile wife.
I have had plenty of suitors in the past, but somehow it never worked out with any of them. At first, I thought it was my destiny, or rather, my misfortune, or maybe there was something wrong with me, or that I lack what a man essentially wants in a woman, but now I realize that it was a lack of compassion from their side and an absolute absence of sensitivity and social acumen.
I have been accused rather pointedly by several well-wishers on my blog why have I not been married and why didn't my family ever try to get fix me up in an arranged marriage. It is not that they did not try or that I did not get a proposal, but more often than not, the man always ran away in the opposite direction after just one meeting or conversation with me. The reason would always be the same. The girl is too liberal, open minded and blunt... Well, that is the way I have always been, free spirited, uninhibited and straightforward. If a man cannot handle me, then he is not a man enough, at least not for me. I could never see myself getting married to someone who has an unwritten prenuptial contract saying his wife should wear the hijab or that she should quit working and stay at home full time looking after his mom and dad. I have never listened to my parents, so how could a man expect me to submit to him?
I have a mind of my own and I always make my own decisions. Sometimes, a choice may not be favorable, but still it is my choice, and I sincerely believe that we learn from our mistakes. There is absolutely nothing that I have ever regretted in my life, and I hope that there never will be.....
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
The quest for a new God
I think I am having one of those writer's blocks these days... Don't know what's gotten into me, but I feel kind of depressed and extremely lonely these days, and today I just wanted to write about what I am going though instead of writing about Mohammed or Islam.
Even when I am surrounded my thousands, I still feel so alone. I guess this is because I am living this dual existence which is killing me from inside. I have to pretend I am one of them when I am certainly not anymore. Sometimes I feel like crying out hysterically, while at others, I just want to laugh out loud. The other day I was sitting in our office cafeteria with a group of friends who were all laughing and gossiping, but I was sitting in a corner just smiling, while at the same time, my eyes were slightly damp with tears. I felt this sudden stab in my heart that these women who are supposed to be my friends and who say they love me actually just love me for what I am. If they found out that I am no longer one of them, they would hate me and would want to kill me. What kind of love is this? Not only them, I feel the same when I am with my family. I have realized that all these people, my friends, family and relatives, just love me for what I am. Everyone's love is so conditional. The truth hurts so much and the more I think of it, the more depressed I feel.
I am a good human being and I believe in God. I have never hurt anyone and I never intend to do, but still, why is this not enough? Why should an apostate of Islam be killed for leaving something he or she no longer believes in? Can anyone honestly tell me its fair?
Once I realized that I am no longer a Muslim, I started searching for my new faith. My first choice was Christianity, for which I did a lot of research and reading, and even asked several questions to Robert, which he very kindly and patiently tried to answer. Then I started looking at Judaism, and for that I befriended a very sweet and kind Rabbi. I really bored him to death with my innumerable stupid questions, which he very kindly answered with lots of references. I am also checking out Hinduism and Buddhism these days. It is very strange and sort of funny that for 35 years I blindly followed a religion believing it would lead me to heaven and then one fine day, I find out that all that was just a facade and a false religion. Now that I am reading about other religions and comparing them with Islam, I feel they do make much more sense than Islam ever did, mainly because no other religion tell us to kill those who do not believe; but at the same time, no religion actually makes complete sense.
I somehow feel every religion has its pros and cons, good and bad points. No religion is absolutely perfect, so I somehow feel it would be better if I just believe in one God and forget the rest. Or perhaps it is too soon to fall into another religion. Maybe I have lived far too long in this cult and it has made me a tad suspicious of everything and everyone. Perhaps I should just leave it for the time being, and then whenever I feel I am ready, I would find the true path that leads to God. I guess it would be safe to say that currently I am just an agnostic; it's safer to just leave it to that.
I can't help wondering how nice and peaceful the world would have been had there been no religion at all. Maybe all religions are just manmade. Every time and era had its own needs and requirements; that is why a new religion was created to gain control and power. Perhaps religion is nothing but a power game. If you carefully read all the religious literature, you would find most of the stuff mentioned does not really make much sense. It is a bunch of unbelievable fairy tales and a lot of allegories.
A hundred different questions, but no answer. This is getting more and more complicated, and, I have to admit, a little frustrating as well. I just can't help but think that perhaps I have opened a Pandora's box which has created havoc in my life. I have not slept peacefully for the last few months and don't know when will I find peace in my life again.
One thing is for sure: that I do believe in God and I do not want to become an Atheist ever. I just hope that I am able to find him soon, for till then, the quest for a new God continues.....
Even when I am surrounded my thousands, I still feel so alone. I guess this is because I am living this dual existence which is killing me from inside. I have to pretend I am one of them when I am certainly not anymore. Sometimes I feel like crying out hysterically, while at others, I just want to laugh out loud. The other day I was sitting in our office cafeteria with a group of friends who were all laughing and gossiping, but I was sitting in a corner just smiling, while at the same time, my eyes were slightly damp with tears. I felt this sudden stab in my heart that these women who are supposed to be my friends and who say they love me actually just love me for what I am. If they found out that I am no longer one of them, they would hate me and would want to kill me. What kind of love is this? Not only them, I feel the same when I am with my family. I have realized that all these people, my friends, family and relatives, just love me for what I am. Everyone's love is so conditional. The truth hurts so much and the more I think of it, the more depressed I feel.
I am a good human being and I believe in God. I have never hurt anyone and I never intend to do, but still, why is this not enough? Why should an apostate of Islam be killed for leaving something he or she no longer believes in? Can anyone honestly tell me its fair?
Once I realized that I am no longer a Muslim, I started searching for my new faith. My first choice was Christianity, for which I did a lot of research and reading, and even asked several questions to Robert, which he very kindly and patiently tried to answer. Then I started looking at Judaism, and for that I befriended a very sweet and kind Rabbi. I really bored him to death with my innumerable stupid questions, which he very kindly answered with lots of references. I am also checking out Hinduism and Buddhism these days. It is very strange and sort of funny that for 35 years I blindly followed a religion believing it would lead me to heaven and then one fine day, I find out that all that was just a facade and a false religion. Now that I am reading about other religions and comparing them with Islam, I feel they do make much more sense than Islam ever did, mainly because no other religion tell us to kill those who do not believe; but at the same time, no religion actually makes complete sense.
I somehow feel every religion has its pros and cons, good and bad points. No religion is absolutely perfect, so I somehow feel it would be better if I just believe in one God and forget the rest. Or perhaps it is too soon to fall into another religion. Maybe I have lived far too long in this cult and it has made me a tad suspicious of everything and everyone. Perhaps I should just leave it for the time being, and then whenever I feel I am ready, I would find the true path that leads to God. I guess it would be safe to say that currently I am just an agnostic; it's safer to just leave it to that.
I can't help wondering how nice and peaceful the world would have been had there been no religion at all. Maybe all religions are just manmade. Every time and era had its own needs and requirements; that is why a new religion was created to gain control and power. Perhaps religion is nothing but a power game. If you carefully read all the religious literature, you would find most of the stuff mentioned does not really make much sense. It is a bunch of unbelievable fairy tales and a lot of allegories.
A hundred different questions, but no answer. This is getting more and more complicated, and, I have to admit, a little frustrating as well. I just can't help but think that perhaps I have opened a Pandora's box which has created havoc in my life. I have not slept peacefully for the last few months and don't know when will I find peace in my life again.
One thing is for sure: that I do believe in God and I do not want to become an Atheist ever. I just hope that I am able to find him soon, for till then, the quest for a new God continues.....
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Women In Islam
Hello, friends. First of all I apologize for being out of sight for nearly a week, as I had been really busy at work, and also had my parents visiting me and my brothers from Pakistan. While they were here staying with me, I could not but help feeling really sorry for them, especially my mother. She covers herself in that black garb and thinks that those women who do not are committing a major crime in the eyes of Allah and Mohammed and those women (actually an indirect insinuation in my direction) will surely be the fuel of the hell fire. I really feel so sorry for my mom and most of my Muslim friends who don the hijab and consider women like us not completely Muslim, and most of the Muslim men consider non-Muslim women and non-hijabi women as mere whores. Believe me when I say that no one suffers as much in this world as the Muslim women, in fact the mother of all believers Ayesha said the exact same words. Islam is heaven for Muslim men, but a hell for the believing women…. I know this and so does every Muslim women on the face of the earth, whether she lives in Pakistan or Iran or Afghanistan or Indonesia or Saudi or Algeria or Turkey…
Engaging in their own form of Stockholm Syndrome, most Muslim women publicly defend the very laws that enslave them. Like my mother, some of my friends and colleagues do. They actually justify the evil misogynistic rules of Islam and say it is for the betterment of the Muslim women. Many Muslims claim that “Islam honors women,” just as they claim that Islam is a “Religion of Peace.” The truth however, is just the opposite. Islam does not honor women, but rather, holds their very lives in absolute bondage. There is no age limit for marriage of girls under Sharia. A man can pay a dowry and sign a marriage contract with the parents of a toddler girl and consummate the marriage at age 9 just because their pedophiliac prophet Mo did that, and they think in doing that, they are just following the Sunnah. According to the Shariah, the adulterer will be stoned to death, but not many people are aware that this rule applies mostly for women, because men are allowed to have sex with their sex slaves and concubines. Even if a man and woman are caught having sex and four witnesses are also present, the punishment for women is digging up a hole and inserting her in up to her chest and then stoning her to death, whereas a man is just stoned while he is standing. And if he manages to escape, he is lucky, but a woman is not even allowed a chance to escape.
The right of divorce is solely in hands of the man, whereas the poor women do not have the right go give divorce, They can go to a Shariah court and ask for a Khul, which is like a divorce in which the woman has to give up all her alimony right, but then it takes a long time, sometimes years, to convince the judge to grant the woman a divorce. I know so many Arab ladies who are waiting for the last couple of years or more for the Shariah court to make their decisions regarding their Khul, whereas their ‘husbands’ have already married a second time and moved on with their lives.
A rebellious wife is one who refuses to go to bed with her husband, and this nullifies the husband’s obligation to support her and gives him permission to beat her. In fact, that misogynistic son of a bitch said: “A man will not be asked as to why he beat his wife." Such a bastard, I swear….
I have never read or heard of anyone more lustful than him.. Here are a few of his sexual escapades:
Qur'an 33:51
"You may have whomever you desire; there is no blame."
Tabari VIII:187
"The [sixty-two-year old] Messenger of Allah married Mulaykah. She was young and beautiful. One of the Prophet's wives came to her and said, 'Are you not ashamed to marry a man who killed your father during the day he conquered Mecca?" She therefore took refuge from him."
Qur'an 66:1
"O Prophet! Why forbid yourself that which Allah has made lawful to you? You seek to please your consorts."
Qur'an 66:4
"If you (women) turn in repentance to him, it would be better. Your hearts have been impaired, for you desired (the ban) [on how many girls Muhammad could play with at a time]. But if you back each other up against (Muhammad), truly Allah is his protector, and Gabriel, and everyone who believes - and furthermore, the angels will back (him) up."
Qur'an 66:5
"Maybe, if he divorces you (all), Allah will give him in exchange consorts better than you - submissive, faithful, obedient, adorers who worship, who travel, and are inclined to fasting - previously married or virgins."
Tabari VIII:117
"Dihyah had asked the Messenger for Safiyah when the Prophet chose her for himself. Muhammad gave Dihyah her two cousins instead." Ishaq:511 "When he protested, wanting to keep Safiyah for himself, the Apostle traded for Safiyah by giving Dihyah her two cousins. The women of Khaybar were distributed among the Muslims."
Bukhari:V5B59N524
"The Muslims said among themselves, 'Will Safiyah be one of the Prophet's wives or just a lady captive and one of his possessions?'"
Tabari VIII:110
"When Abu Sufyan learned that the Prophet had taken her, he said, 'That stallion's nose is not to be restrained!'"
Bukhari:V4B52N143
V5B59N523
"When we reached Khaybar, Muhammad said that Allah had enabled him to conquer them. It was then that the beauty of Safiyah was described to him. Her husband had been killed [by Muhammad], so Allah's Apostle selected her for himself. He took her along with him till we reached a place where her menses were over and he took her for his wife, consummating his marriage to her, and forcing her to wear the veil.'"
Tabari VIII:122
Ishaq:515
"Muhammad commanded that Safiyah should be kept behind him and he threw his cloak over her. Thus the Muslims knew that he had chosen her for himself."
Ishaq:517
"When the Apostle took Safiyah on his way out of town, she was beautified and combed, putting her in a fitting state for the Messenger. The Apostle passed the night with her in his tent. Abu Ayyub, girt with his sword, guarded the Apostle, going round the tent until he saw him emerge in the morning. Abu said, 'I was afraid for you with this woman for you have killed her father, her husband, and her people."
Qur'an 33:30
"O Consorts of the Prophet! If...any of you are devout, obedient, and submissive in the service to Allah and His Messenger, and does good, to her shall We grant her reward twice. We have prepared for her a generously rich provision."
Tabari IX:126
"The Messenger of Allah married fifteen women. He combined eleven at a time and left behind nine."
Ishaq:311
"The Apostle saw Ummu'l when she was a baby crawling before his feet and said, 'If she grows up, I will marry her.' But he died before he was able to do so."
Tabari VII:7
"The Prophet married Aisha in Mecca three years before the Hijrah, after the death of Khadija. At the time she was six." Ishaq:281 "When the Apostle came to Medina he was fifty-three."
Tabari IX:128
"When the Prophet married Aisha she very young and not yet ready for consummation."
Bukhari:V9B87N139-40
"Allah's Apostle told Aisha, 'You were shown to me twice in my dreams [a.k.a. sexual fantasies]. I beheld a man or angel carrying you in a silken cloth. He said to me, "She is yours, so uncover her." And behold, it was you. I would then say to myself, "If this is from Allah, then it must happen."'"
Tabari IX:131
"My mother came to me while I was being swung on a swing between two branches and got me down. My nurse wiped my face with some water and started leading me. When I was at the door she stopped so I could catch my breath. I was then brought in while the Messenger was sitting on a bed in our house. My mother made me sit on his lap. Then the men and women got up and left. The Prophet consummated his marriage with me in my house when I was nine years old."
Tabari IX:133
"Juwayriyyah was chosen by the Messenger for himself on the day of the Muraysi raid from the captives." "Muhammad married Umm, who had embraced Christianity."
Tabari IX:134
"Muhammad took Zaynab [his daughter-in-law] but Allah did not find any fault in the [incestuous] relationship and ordered the marriage."
Tabari IX:135
"When the Prophet scrutinized the captives on the day of Khaybar, he threw his cloak over Safayah. Thus she was his chosen one." Tabari IX:139 "The Messenger married Ghaziyyah after the news of her beauty and skill had reached him."
Tabari IX:137
"Allah granted Rayhanah of the [Jewish] Qurayza to His Messenger as booty [but only after she had been forced to watch him decapitate her father and brother, seen her mother hauled off to be raped, and her sisters sold into slavery]."
Tabari IX:137
"Mariyah, a Copt slave, was presented to the Prophet. She was given to him by Muqawqis, the ruler of Alexandria."
Tabari IX:138
"The Prophet married Aliyyah, a Bakr woman. He gave her gifts for divorce and left her. He also married Qutaylah, but he died before he could consummate the marriage."
Tabari IX:139
"Layla approached the Prophet while his back was to the sun and clapped him on his shoulder. He asked her who it was and she replied, 'I am the daughter of one who competes with the wind. I am Layla. I have come to offer myself to you.' He replied, 'I accept.'" [Layla shared her story with her parents.] "They said, 'What a bad thing you have done! You are a self-respecting girl, but the Prophet is a womanizer.'"
Tabari IX:147
"A eunuch named Mubur was presented to Muhammad along with two slave girls. One he took as a concubine, the other he gave to Haasn."
Ishaq:186
"He took me into Paradise and there I saw a damsel with dark red lips. I asked her to whom she belonged, for she pleased me much when I saw her."
Bukhari:V4B52N211
"I participated in a Ghazwa [raid] with the Prophet. I said, 'Apostle, I am a bridegroom.' He asked me whether I had married a virgin or matron. I answered, 'A matron.' He said, 'Why not a virgin who would have played with you? Then you could have played with her.' 'Apostle! My father was martyred and I have some young sisters, so I felt it not proper that I should marry a young girl as young as them.'"
Tabari VIII:100
"The Messenger sent Hatib to Muqawqis, the ruler of Alexandria. Hatib delivered the letter of the Prophet, and Muqawqis gave Allah's Apostle four slave girls."
Bukhari:V9B86N98
"The Prophet said, 'A virgin should not be married till she is asked for her consent.' 'O Apostle! How will the virgin express her consent?' He said, 'By remaining silent.'"
Bukhari:V5B59N342
"Umar said, 'When my daughter Hafsa lost her husband in the battle of Badr, Allah's Apostle demanded her hand in marriage and I married her to him.'"
Tabari VIII:1
"In this year the Messenger married Zaynab bt. Jahsh [a first cousin: Allah's Messenger came to the house of Zayd bin [son of] Muhammad. Perhaps the Messenger missed him at that moment. Zaynab, Zayd's wife, rose to meet him. She was dressed only in a shift.... She jumped up eagerly and excited the admiration of Allah's Messenger, so that he turned away murmuring something that could scarcely be understood. However, he did say overtly, 'Glory be to Allah Almighty, who causes hearts to turn!' So Zayd went to Muhammad. 'Prophet, I have heard that you came to my house. Why didn't you go in? [Dad,] Perhaps Zaynab has excited your admiration, so I will leave her.'"
Tabari VIII:4
"One day Muhammad went out looking for Zayd. Now there was a covering of haircloth over the doorway, but the wind had lifted the covering so that the doorway was uncovered. Zaynab was in her chamber, undressed, and admiration for her entered the heart of the Prophet. After that Allah made her unattractive to Zayd.'"
Tabari VIII:3
"Zayd left her, and she became free. While the Messenger of Allah was talking with Aisha, a fainting overcame him. When he was released from it, he smiled and said, 'Who will go to Zaynab to tell her the good news? Allah has married her to me.' Then the Prophet recited [Qur'an 33] to the end of the passage. Aisha said, 'I became very uneasy because of what we heard about her beauty and another thing, the loftiest of matters, what Allah had done for her by personally giving her to him in marriage. I said that she would boast of it over us.'"
Qur'an 33:4
"Allah has not made your wives whom you divorce your mothers: nor has He made your adopted sons your sons. Such is (only) your (manner of) speech by your mouths."
Qur'an 33:6
"The Prophet has a greater claim on the faithful than they have on themselves, and his wives are their mothers.... This is written in the Book."
Qur'an 33:37
"You hid in your mind and your heart that which Allah was about to manifest: you feared the people, but it is more fitting that thou shouldst fear Allah. Then when Zayd had dissolved (his marriage) with her, with the necessary (formality), We gave her to you, joining her in marriage to you: in order that there may be no difficulty or sin for the Believers in the wives of their adopted sons, when the latter have dissolved with the necessary (formality) (their marriage) with them. And Allah's command must be fulfilled."
Qur'an 33:38
"There can be no difficulty, harm, or reproach to the Prophet in doing what Allah has ordained to him as a duty. It was the practice (approved) of Allah amongst those of old that have passed away. And the commandment of Allah is a decree determined. (It is the practice of those) who deliver the Messages of Allah, and fear Him. Allah keeps good account. Muhammad is not the father of any of your men, but (he is) the Messenger of Allah, and the Last of the Prophets with the Seal: and Allah has full knowledge of all things."
Qur'an 33:48
"And obey not (the behests) of the Unbelievers and the Hypocrites. Disregard their noxious talk and heed not their annoyances, but put thy trust in Allah. For enough is Allah as a Disposer of affairs."
Qur'an 33:50
"O Prophet! We have made lawful to you all the wives to whom you have paid dowers; and those whom your hands possess out of the prisoners of war spoils whom Allah has assigned to you; and daughters of your paternal uncles and aunts, and daughters of your uncles and aunts, who migrated with you; and any believing woman if the Prophet wishes her; this is a privilege for you only, and not for the rest of the Believers; We know what We have appointed for them as to their wives and the captives whom they possess; in order that there should be no difficulty for you and that you should be free from blame."
Qur'an 33:51
"You may put off whom you please, and you may take to you whomever you desire. You may defer any of them you please, and you may have whomever you desire; there is no blame on you if you invite one who you had set aside. It is no sin."
Qur'an 33:28
"O Prophet, say to your wives and consorts: 'If you desire this world's life and its glittering adornment, then come! I will provide them for your enjoyment and set you free in a handsome manner. And if you desire Allah and His Messenger and the latter abode, then lo! Allah hath prepared for the good-doers an immense reward."
Qur'an 33:30
"O Consorts of the Prophet! If any of you are guilty of unseemly conduct, shamelessness, or lewdness, the punishment will be doubled, and that is easy for Allah. But any of you that is devout, obedient, and submissive in the service to Allah and His Messenger, and does good, to her shall We grant her reward twice. We have prepared for her a generously rich provision."
Qur'an 33:32
"Consorts of the Prophet! You are not like any of the (other) women. Fear and keep your duty, lest one in whose heart is a disease should be moved with desire. Stay quietly in your apartment. Make not a dazzling display like that of the former times of Ignorance. Perform the devotion, pay the zakat; and obey Allah and His Messenger. And Allah wishes to cleanse you with a thorough cleansing. And bear in mind that which is recited in your houses of the revelations of Allah and the wisdom."
Qur'an 33:36
"It is not fitting for a Muslim man or woman to have any choice in their affairs when a matter has been decided for them by Allah and His Messenger. They have no option. If any one disobeys Allah and His Messenger, he is indeed on a wrong Path."
Qur'an 4:23
"Prohibited to you are: your mothers, daughters, sisters.... Also (prohibited are) women already married, except slaves who are captives." [Rape is okay with Team Islam.]
Bukhari:V5B59N459
"I entered the Mosque, saw Abu, sat beside him and asked about sex. Abu Said said, 'We went out with Allah's Apostle and we received female slaves from among the captives. We desired women and we loved to do coitus interruptus.'"
So you see, the so-called Holy Prophet of Islam is nothing but a sick, perverted sex maniac, a pedophiliac misogynist, and a heartless creature who had absolutely no sense of morals or ethics. He was a self-proclaimed prophet who wanted nothing but power and pussies. That is all he was interested in, and yes, a lot of booty as well… Now if any Muslim person has anything to say in his defense, I would be more than happy to read it. So come on, Slave of Allah, Anj and Skouti. I am all ears.
Have a great weekend, everyone. Cheers…
Engaging in their own form of Stockholm Syndrome, most Muslim women publicly defend the very laws that enslave them. Like my mother, some of my friends and colleagues do. They actually justify the evil misogynistic rules of Islam and say it is for the betterment of the Muslim women. Many Muslims claim that “Islam honors women,” just as they claim that Islam is a “Religion of Peace.” The truth however, is just the opposite. Islam does not honor women, but rather, holds their very lives in absolute bondage. There is no age limit for marriage of girls under Sharia. A man can pay a dowry and sign a marriage contract with the parents of a toddler girl and consummate the marriage at age 9 just because their pedophiliac prophet Mo did that, and they think in doing that, they are just following the Sunnah. According to the Shariah, the adulterer will be stoned to death, but not many people are aware that this rule applies mostly for women, because men are allowed to have sex with their sex slaves and concubines. Even if a man and woman are caught having sex and four witnesses are also present, the punishment for women is digging up a hole and inserting her in up to her chest and then stoning her to death, whereas a man is just stoned while he is standing. And if he manages to escape, he is lucky, but a woman is not even allowed a chance to escape.
The right of divorce is solely in hands of the man, whereas the poor women do not have the right go give divorce, They can go to a Shariah court and ask for a Khul, which is like a divorce in which the woman has to give up all her alimony right, but then it takes a long time, sometimes years, to convince the judge to grant the woman a divorce. I know so many Arab ladies who are waiting for the last couple of years or more for the Shariah court to make their decisions regarding their Khul, whereas their ‘husbands’ have already married a second time and moved on with their lives.
A rebellious wife is one who refuses to go to bed with her husband, and this nullifies the husband’s obligation to support her and gives him permission to beat her. In fact, that misogynistic son of a bitch said: “A man will not be asked as to why he beat his wife." Such a bastard, I swear….
I have never read or heard of anyone more lustful than him.. Here are a few of his sexual escapades:
Qur'an 33:51
"You may have whomever you desire; there is no blame."
Tabari VIII:187
"The [sixty-two-year old] Messenger of Allah married Mulaykah. She was young and beautiful. One of the Prophet's wives came to her and said, 'Are you not ashamed to marry a man who killed your father during the day he conquered Mecca?" She therefore took refuge from him."
Qur'an 66:1
"O Prophet! Why forbid yourself that which Allah has made lawful to you? You seek to please your consorts."
Qur'an 66:4
"If you (women) turn in repentance to him, it would be better. Your hearts have been impaired, for you desired (the ban) [on how many girls Muhammad could play with at a time]. But if you back each other up against (Muhammad), truly Allah is his protector, and Gabriel, and everyone who believes - and furthermore, the angels will back (him) up."
Qur'an 66:5
"Maybe, if he divorces you (all), Allah will give him in exchange consorts better than you - submissive, faithful, obedient, adorers who worship, who travel, and are inclined to fasting - previously married or virgins."
Tabari VIII:117
"Dihyah had asked the Messenger for Safiyah when the Prophet chose her for himself. Muhammad gave Dihyah her two cousins instead." Ishaq:511 "When he protested, wanting to keep Safiyah for himself, the Apostle traded for Safiyah by giving Dihyah her two cousins. The women of Khaybar were distributed among the Muslims."
Bukhari:V5B59N524
"The Muslims said among themselves, 'Will Safiyah be one of the Prophet's wives or just a lady captive and one of his possessions?'"
Tabari VIII:110
"When Abu Sufyan learned that the Prophet had taken her, he said, 'That stallion's nose is not to be restrained!'"
Bukhari:V4B52N143
V5B59N523
"When we reached Khaybar, Muhammad said that Allah had enabled him to conquer them. It was then that the beauty of Safiyah was described to him. Her husband had been killed [by Muhammad], so Allah's Apostle selected her for himself. He took her along with him till we reached a place where her menses were over and he took her for his wife, consummating his marriage to her, and forcing her to wear the veil.'"
Tabari VIII:122
Ishaq:515
"Muhammad commanded that Safiyah should be kept behind him and he threw his cloak over her. Thus the Muslims knew that he had chosen her for himself."
Ishaq:517
"When the Apostle took Safiyah on his way out of town, she was beautified and combed, putting her in a fitting state for the Messenger. The Apostle passed the night with her in his tent. Abu Ayyub, girt with his sword, guarded the Apostle, going round the tent until he saw him emerge in the morning. Abu said, 'I was afraid for you with this woman for you have killed her father, her husband, and her people."
Qur'an 33:30
"O Consorts of the Prophet! If...any of you are devout, obedient, and submissive in the service to Allah and His Messenger, and does good, to her shall We grant her reward twice. We have prepared for her a generously rich provision."
Tabari IX:126
"The Messenger of Allah married fifteen women. He combined eleven at a time and left behind nine."
Ishaq:311
"The Apostle saw Ummu'l when she was a baby crawling before his feet and said, 'If she grows up, I will marry her.' But he died before he was able to do so."
Tabari VII:7
"The Prophet married Aisha in Mecca three years before the Hijrah, after the death of Khadija. At the time she was six." Ishaq:281 "When the Apostle came to Medina he was fifty-three."
Tabari IX:128
"When the Prophet married Aisha she very young and not yet ready for consummation."
Bukhari:V9B87N139-40
"Allah's Apostle told Aisha, 'You were shown to me twice in my dreams [a.k.a. sexual fantasies]. I beheld a man or angel carrying you in a silken cloth. He said to me, "She is yours, so uncover her." And behold, it was you. I would then say to myself, "If this is from Allah, then it must happen."'"
Tabari IX:131
"My mother came to me while I was being swung on a swing between two branches and got me down. My nurse wiped my face with some water and started leading me. When I was at the door she stopped so I could catch my breath. I was then brought in while the Messenger was sitting on a bed in our house. My mother made me sit on his lap. Then the men and women got up and left. The Prophet consummated his marriage with me in my house when I was nine years old."
Tabari IX:133
"Juwayriyyah was chosen by the Messenger for himself on the day of the Muraysi raid from the captives." "Muhammad married Umm, who had embraced Christianity."
Tabari IX:134
"Muhammad took Zaynab [his daughter-in-law] but Allah did not find any fault in the [incestuous] relationship and ordered the marriage."
Tabari IX:135
"When the Prophet scrutinized the captives on the day of Khaybar, he threw his cloak over Safayah. Thus she was his chosen one." Tabari IX:139 "The Messenger married Ghaziyyah after the news of her beauty and skill had reached him."
Tabari IX:137
"Allah granted Rayhanah of the [Jewish] Qurayza to His Messenger as booty [but only after she had been forced to watch him decapitate her father and brother, seen her mother hauled off to be raped, and her sisters sold into slavery]."
Tabari IX:137
"Mariyah, a Copt slave, was presented to the Prophet. She was given to him by Muqawqis, the ruler of Alexandria."
Tabari IX:138
"The Prophet married Aliyyah, a Bakr woman. He gave her gifts for divorce and left her. He also married Qutaylah, but he died before he could consummate the marriage."
Tabari IX:139
"Layla approached the Prophet while his back was to the sun and clapped him on his shoulder. He asked her who it was and she replied, 'I am the daughter of one who competes with the wind. I am Layla. I have come to offer myself to you.' He replied, 'I accept.'" [Layla shared her story with her parents.] "They said, 'What a bad thing you have done! You are a self-respecting girl, but the Prophet is a womanizer.'"
Tabari IX:147
"A eunuch named Mubur was presented to Muhammad along with two slave girls. One he took as a concubine, the other he gave to Haasn."
Ishaq:186
"He took me into Paradise and there I saw a damsel with dark red lips. I asked her to whom she belonged, for she pleased me much when I saw her."
Bukhari:V4B52N211
"I participated in a Ghazwa [raid] with the Prophet. I said, 'Apostle, I am a bridegroom.' He asked me whether I had married a virgin or matron. I answered, 'A matron.' He said, 'Why not a virgin who would have played with you? Then you could have played with her.' 'Apostle! My father was martyred and I have some young sisters, so I felt it not proper that I should marry a young girl as young as them.'"
Tabari VIII:100
"The Messenger sent Hatib to Muqawqis, the ruler of Alexandria. Hatib delivered the letter of the Prophet, and Muqawqis gave Allah's Apostle four slave girls."
Bukhari:V9B86N98
"The Prophet said, 'A virgin should not be married till she is asked for her consent.' 'O Apostle! How will the virgin express her consent?' He said, 'By remaining silent.'"
Bukhari:V5B59N342
"Umar said, 'When my daughter Hafsa lost her husband in the battle of Badr, Allah's Apostle demanded her hand in marriage and I married her to him.'"
Tabari VIII:1
"In this year the Messenger married Zaynab bt. Jahsh [a first cousin: Allah's Messenger came to the house of Zayd bin [son of] Muhammad. Perhaps the Messenger missed him at that moment. Zaynab, Zayd's wife, rose to meet him. She was dressed only in a shift.... She jumped up eagerly and excited the admiration of Allah's Messenger, so that he turned away murmuring something that could scarcely be understood. However, he did say overtly, 'Glory be to Allah Almighty, who causes hearts to turn!' So Zayd went to Muhammad. 'Prophet, I have heard that you came to my house. Why didn't you go in? [Dad,] Perhaps Zaynab has excited your admiration, so I will leave her.'"
Tabari VIII:4
"One day Muhammad went out looking for Zayd. Now there was a covering of haircloth over the doorway, but the wind had lifted the covering so that the doorway was uncovered. Zaynab was in her chamber, undressed, and admiration for her entered the heart of the Prophet. After that Allah made her unattractive to Zayd.'"
Tabari VIII:3
"Zayd left her, and she became free. While the Messenger of Allah was talking with Aisha, a fainting overcame him. When he was released from it, he smiled and said, 'Who will go to Zaynab to tell her the good news? Allah has married her to me.' Then the Prophet recited [Qur'an 33] to the end of the passage. Aisha said, 'I became very uneasy because of what we heard about her beauty and another thing, the loftiest of matters, what Allah had done for her by personally giving her to him in marriage. I said that she would boast of it over us.'"
Qur'an 33:4
"Allah has not made your wives whom you divorce your mothers: nor has He made your adopted sons your sons. Such is (only) your (manner of) speech by your mouths."
Qur'an 33:6
"The Prophet has a greater claim on the faithful than they have on themselves, and his wives are their mothers.... This is written in the Book."
Qur'an 33:37
"You hid in your mind and your heart that which Allah was about to manifest: you feared the people, but it is more fitting that thou shouldst fear Allah. Then when Zayd had dissolved (his marriage) with her, with the necessary (formality), We gave her to you, joining her in marriage to you: in order that there may be no difficulty or sin for the Believers in the wives of their adopted sons, when the latter have dissolved with the necessary (formality) (their marriage) with them. And Allah's command must be fulfilled."
Qur'an 33:38
"There can be no difficulty, harm, or reproach to the Prophet in doing what Allah has ordained to him as a duty. It was the practice (approved) of Allah amongst those of old that have passed away. And the commandment of Allah is a decree determined. (It is the practice of those) who deliver the Messages of Allah, and fear Him. Allah keeps good account. Muhammad is not the father of any of your men, but (he is) the Messenger of Allah, and the Last of the Prophets with the Seal: and Allah has full knowledge of all things."
Qur'an 33:48
"And obey not (the behests) of the Unbelievers and the Hypocrites. Disregard their noxious talk and heed not their annoyances, but put thy trust in Allah. For enough is Allah as a Disposer of affairs."
Qur'an 33:50
"O Prophet! We have made lawful to you all the wives to whom you have paid dowers; and those whom your hands possess out of the prisoners of war spoils whom Allah has assigned to you; and daughters of your paternal uncles and aunts, and daughters of your uncles and aunts, who migrated with you; and any believing woman if the Prophet wishes her; this is a privilege for you only, and not for the rest of the Believers; We know what We have appointed for them as to their wives and the captives whom they possess; in order that there should be no difficulty for you and that you should be free from blame."
Qur'an 33:51
"You may put off whom you please, and you may take to you whomever you desire. You may defer any of them you please, and you may have whomever you desire; there is no blame on you if you invite one who you had set aside. It is no sin."
Qur'an 33:28
"O Prophet, say to your wives and consorts: 'If you desire this world's life and its glittering adornment, then come! I will provide them for your enjoyment and set you free in a handsome manner. And if you desire Allah and His Messenger and the latter abode, then lo! Allah hath prepared for the good-doers an immense reward."
Qur'an 33:30
"O Consorts of the Prophet! If any of you are guilty of unseemly conduct, shamelessness, or lewdness, the punishment will be doubled, and that is easy for Allah. But any of you that is devout, obedient, and submissive in the service to Allah and His Messenger, and does good, to her shall We grant her reward twice. We have prepared for her a generously rich provision."
Qur'an 33:32
"Consorts of the Prophet! You are not like any of the (other) women. Fear and keep your duty, lest one in whose heart is a disease should be moved with desire. Stay quietly in your apartment. Make not a dazzling display like that of the former times of Ignorance. Perform the devotion, pay the zakat; and obey Allah and His Messenger. And Allah wishes to cleanse you with a thorough cleansing. And bear in mind that which is recited in your houses of the revelations of Allah and the wisdom."
Qur'an 33:36
"It is not fitting for a Muslim man or woman to have any choice in their affairs when a matter has been decided for them by Allah and His Messenger. They have no option. If any one disobeys Allah and His Messenger, he is indeed on a wrong Path."
Qur'an 4:23
"Prohibited to you are: your mothers, daughters, sisters.... Also (prohibited are) women already married, except slaves who are captives." [Rape is okay with Team Islam.]
Bukhari:V5B59N459
"I entered the Mosque, saw Abu, sat beside him and asked about sex. Abu Said said, 'We went out with Allah's Apostle and we received female slaves from among the captives. We desired women and we loved to do coitus interruptus.'"
So you see, the so-called Holy Prophet of Islam is nothing but a sick, perverted sex maniac, a pedophiliac misogynist, and a heartless creature who had absolutely no sense of morals or ethics. He was a self-proclaimed prophet who wanted nothing but power and pussies. That is all he was interested in, and yes, a lot of booty as well… Now if any Muslim person has anything to say in his defense, I would be more than happy to read it. So come on, Slave of Allah, Anj and Skouti. I am all ears.
Have a great weekend, everyone. Cheers…
Sunday, January 15, 2012
A Psychoanalysis of MO
If you read the biography of Mo in detail, you would realize that he was not exactly mentally stable. In fact, if he lived today, he would have been any physician’s nightmare…Do you have any idea the number of Phobias and Compulsive disorders that Mo suffered from? Here is my own psychoanalysis of the world's most influential person: Mohammed, the prophet of Islam.
A short list of his phobias:
Alliumphobia - Fear of garlic…. Hence the hadeeth which says that men should not go to the mosque to pray after eating garlic (and here we were all assuming he was a vampire).
Aurophobia - Fear of gold…Ha! Now we know why men are not supposed to wear gold in Islam. I wonder there is a phobia of silk as well.
Automysophobia - Fear of being dirty…..Ok, that explains the obsession of bathing, wiping your ass, shaving your armpits and pubic area and making wudu 5 times a day. And yes, bathing after sex.
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia - Fear of flying…..Hence the nightmare in which he flew on a donkey/mule to heaven.
Bibliophobia - Fear of books....Probably why he never learnt to read and write, even after he supposedly received divine inspiration. Come on, he had 23 years and he would not learn to read and write. Quite simply, he had a fear of books.
Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed….That explains why people were killed and are still being killed if they even dare to ridicule him – Blasphemy laws, aka Catagelophobia….
Cynophobia - Fear of dogs…. Now this is really cruel. He commanded to kill all the poor innocent dogs, especially the black ones, because they are actually the devil….?????
Demonophobia or Daemonophobia - Fear of demons AND Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft….This precisely explains his acute fear of genies and goblins and witches and evil spirits, and the suras about jinns, black magic, evil eye and demons and God knows what….Are we really talking about an adult male here????
Geliophobia - Fear of laughter….He almost never laughed and told his followers that laughing loudly is the work of Satan.
Christianophobia - fear/dislike of Christians AND Judeophobia – fear/dislike of Jews. No explanation required… LOL
Gynephobia or Gynophobia - Fear of women…. Hence the hadeeth saying that majority of the residents of hell would be women….
Hadephobia - Fear of hell….Yeah, we all know that. There is no doubt that he was totally obsessed with it.
Homophobia - Fear of sameness, monotony or of homosexuality, or of becoming homosexual….He probably feared them to death. That is why ordered all homosexuals to be killed. Makes perfect sense, doesn’t it?
Levophobia - Fear of things to the left side of the body AND Sinistrophobia - Fear of things to the left or left-handed.…. Now this is a very interesting one. I always used to wonder why Islam is so particular about it. Walk into a mosque with your right foot, eat with your right hand, and pass the plate to the right side first… Do everything with your right hand except wiping your butt after defecating….
Melanophobia - Fear of the color black….So now you know why on the judgment day, all the sinners’ faces would turn black and the pious ones’ would be white. He often made fun of the black slaves, and even compared them to raisin heads...He even ordered to kill all black dogs and said even the black cats are evil…Call it whatever, but I call it racism…
Melophobia - Fear or hatred of music….You must be kidding me? And the poor people have been depriving themselves of music for the last 14 centuries because MO said it's haram and the work of Satan…
Menophobia - Fear of menstruation….He said it is a disease from God for all women. It explains his hatred for menstruation and also for women.
Methyphobia - Fear of alcohol…My guess is he feared alcohol and made it haram just because he wanted to control the minds of all Muslim men and women. If alcohol was permitted, it would have controlled their minds instead. He wanted the fear of hell, the goal of heaven and the aim to get there (Jihad) to be on their minds 24x7, and he feared that intoxication might make them forget their mission momentarily. … See, I always said he was a smart SOB….
Nyctophobia - Fear of the dark or of night AND Nyctohylophobia - Fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night….. That is why he made up that cock & bull story about jinns and demons roaming around in such places….
Pyrophobia - Fear of fire….Or rather, obsession with fire and hell…
Satanophobia - Fear of Satan….Yeah, he feared him so much that he actually believed Satan put verses in his mouth…
Urophobia - Fear of urine or urinating….Aha.. Now I get it, the meaning of that hadeeth in which he passed by a grave and said the person in this grave is being tormented because he was very careless with his urine, that is, he did not clean himself well after urinating….
Gosh, this man is getting more and more complicated, isn’t he? Ok, enough with the phobias. Now let’s dwell on his OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder….
Catapedamania - Obsession with jumping from high places .... Remember, he wanted to jump off the cliff several times when he supposedly saw and spoke to Gabrael.
Dacnomania - Obsession with killing. Come on, you don't really need an explanation for this one.
Entheomania - Abnormal belief that one is divinely inspired ..... In other words, having a very vivid imagination.
Erotomania - Abnormally powerful sex drive .... 13 wives, innumerable sex slaves / concubines. And don't forget, he used to have sex with all of them in one night....
Flagellomania - Abnormal enthusiasm for flogging.... 100 lashes for adultery.
Gamomania - Obsession with issuing odd marriage proposals .... Yeah, odd, as in proposing that his son divorce his wife so that he can get married to his daughter in-law, and REALLY ODD, marrying his best friend’s six year old baby girl when he was 53 years old… You can’t get any odder than that, MO.
Gynaecomania - Abnormal sexual obsession with women.... I think everyone everyone is aware about this abnormality, because there absolutely nothing normal about having sex with 9 women in one night.
Arithmomania - Obsessive preoccupation with numbers.... 5 prayers, 3 times washing your hands and face while making ablution. Saying his praise 33 times each after each prayer. 7 circumambulations around the Kaaba. 7 times safa marwa... Reading ayatal kursi 7 times. Cleaning your butt with an odd number of stones. Drinking water in 3 gulps. Spitting three times on seeing a bad dream. There are so many such eccentricities associated with numbers.
Mythomania - Lying or exaggerating to an abnormal extent... Oh yes, our MO takes all awards for this category. No one could lie and exaggerate better than he could. He should definitely get the Oscars for best story writing.
Necromania - Sexual obsession with dead bodies; necrophilia.... Didn’t he sleep with his dead aunt once? This guy is getting creepier by the day.
Opsomania - Abnormal love for one kind of food.... Dates, dates and dates.
Phonomania - Pathological tendency to murder... But in this case, not just murder, but murder by torture...
Polemomania - Mania for war.... Wars, battles, raids, whatever you call them, but our bandit MO sure had a penchant for those....
Pyromania - Craze for starting fires.... Yeah, he sure had a thing for setting fires. He once said that he wished he could set all those houses on fire whose residents did not show up at the mosque to pray. And if I remember correctly, he once set a mosque on fire and burnt everyone inside alive.
Sebastomania - Religious insanity.... Well, this kind of insanity still exists in most of Mo's followers for the past 14 centuries...
Well, I guess it would be safe to say that had MO not been there, probably these mental disorders would not even have been discovered. The science of Psychiatry is highly indebted to Mohammed, the prophet of Islam, for giving them so much of study material. How about setting up a mental asylum in his name???
A short list of his phobias:
Alliumphobia - Fear of garlic…. Hence the hadeeth which says that men should not go to the mosque to pray after eating garlic (and here we were all assuming he was a vampire).
Aurophobia - Fear of gold…Ha! Now we know why men are not supposed to wear gold in Islam. I wonder there is a phobia of silk as well.
Automysophobia - Fear of being dirty…..Ok, that explains the obsession of bathing, wiping your ass, shaving your armpits and pubic area and making wudu 5 times a day. And yes, bathing after sex.
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia - Fear of flying…..Hence the nightmare in which he flew on a donkey/mule to heaven.
Bibliophobia - Fear of books....Probably why he never learnt to read and write, even after he supposedly received divine inspiration. Come on, he had 23 years and he would not learn to read and write. Quite simply, he had a fear of books.
Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed….That explains why people were killed and are still being killed if they even dare to ridicule him – Blasphemy laws, aka Catagelophobia….
Cynophobia - Fear of dogs…. Now this is really cruel. He commanded to kill all the poor innocent dogs, especially the black ones, because they are actually the devil….?????
Demonophobia or Daemonophobia - Fear of demons AND Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft….This precisely explains his acute fear of genies and goblins and witches and evil spirits, and the suras about jinns, black magic, evil eye and demons and God knows what….Are we really talking about an adult male here????
Geliophobia - Fear of laughter….He almost never laughed and told his followers that laughing loudly is the work of Satan.
Christianophobia - fear/dislike of Christians AND Judeophobia – fear/dislike of Jews. No explanation required… LOL
Gynephobia or Gynophobia - Fear of women…. Hence the hadeeth saying that majority of the residents of hell would be women….
Hadephobia - Fear of hell….Yeah, we all know that. There is no doubt that he was totally obsessed with it.
Homophobia - Fear of sameness, monotony or of homosexuality, or of becoming homosexual….He probably feared them to death. That is why ordered all homosexuals to be killed. Makes perfect sense, doesn’t it?
Levophobia - Fear of things to the left side of the body AND Sinistrophobia - Fear of things to the left or left-handed.…. Now this is a very interesting one. I always used to wonder why Islam is so particular about it. Walk into a mosque with your right foot, eat with your right hand, and pass the plate to the right side first… Do everything with your right hand except wiping your butt after defecating….
Melanophobia - Fear of the color black….So now you know why on the judgment day, all the sinners’ faces would turn black and the pious ones’ would be white. He often made fun of the black slaves, and even compared them to raisin heads...He even ordered to kill all black dogs and said even the black cats are evil…Call it whatever, but I call it racism…
Melophobia - Fear or hatred of music….You must be kidding me? And the poor people have been depriving themselves of music for the last 14 centuries because MO said it's haram and the work of Satan…
Menophobia - Fear of menstruation….He said it is a disease from God for all women. It explains his hatred for menstruation and also for women.
Methyphobia - Fear of alcohol…My guess is he feared alcohol and made it haram just because he wanted to control the minds of all Muslim men and women. If alcohol was permitted, it would have controlled their minds instead. He wanted the fear of hell, the goal of heaven and the aim to get there (Jihad) to be on their minds 24x7, and he feared that intoxication might make them forget their mission momentarily. … See, I always said he was a smart SOB….
Nyctophobia - Fear of the dark or of night AND Nyctohylophobia - Fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night….. That is why he made up that cock & bull story about jinns and demons roaming around in such places….
Pyrophobia - Fear of fire….Or rather, obsession with fire and hell…
Satanophobia - Fear of Satan….Yeah, he feared him so much that he actually believed Satan put verses in his mouth…
Urophobia - Fear of urine or urinating….Aha.. Now I get it, the meaning of that hadeeth in which he passed by a grave and said the person in this grave is being tormented because he was very careless with his urine, that is, he did not clean himself well after urinating….
Gosh, this man is getting more and more complicated, isn’t he? Ok, enough with the phobias. Now let’s dwell on his OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder….
Catapedamania - Obsession with jumping from high places .... Remember, he wanted to jump off the cliff several times when he supposedly saw and spoke to Gabrael.
Dacnomania - Obsession with killing. Come on, you don't really need an explanation for this one.
Entheomania - Abnormal belief that one is divinely inspired ..... In other words, having a very vivid imagination.
Erotomania - Abnormally powerful sex drive .... 13 wives, innumerable sex slaves / concubines. And don't forget, he used to have sex with all of them in one night....
Flagellomania - Abnormal enthusiasm for flogging.... 100 lashes for adultery.
Gamomania - Obsession with issuing odd marriage proposals .... Yeah, odd, as in proposing that his son divorce his wife so that he can get married to his daughter in-law, and REALLY ODD, marrying his best friend’s six year old baby girl when he was 53 years old… You can’t get any odder than that, MO.
Gynaecomania - Abnormal sexual obsession with women.... I think everyone everyone is aware about this abnormality, because there absolutely nothing normal about having sex with 9 women in one night.
Arithmomania - Obsessive preoccupation with numbers.... 5 prayers, 3 times washing your hands and face while making ablution. Saying his praise 33 times each after each prayer. 7 circumambulations around the Kaaba. 7 times safa marwa... Reading ayatal kursi 7 times. Cleaning your butt with an odd number of stones. Drinking water in 3 gulps. Spitting three times on seeing a bad dream. There are so many such eccentricities associated with numbers.
Mythomania - Lying or exaggerating to an abnormal extent... Oh yes, our MO takes all awards for this category. No one could lie and exaggerate better than he could. He should definitely get the Oscars for best story writing.
Necromania - Sexual obsession with dead bodies; necrophilia.... Didn’t he sleep with his dead aunt once? This guy is getting creepier by the day.
Opsomania - Abnormal love for one kind of food.... Dates, dates and dates.
Phonomania - Pathological tendency to murder... But in this case, not just murder, but murder by torture...
Polemomania - Mania for war.... Wars, battles, raids, whatever you call them, but our bandit MO sure had a penchant for those....
Pyromania - Craze for starting fires.... Yeah, he sure had a thing for setting fires. He once said that he wished he could set all those houses on fire whose residents did not show up at the mosque to pray. And if I remember correctly, he once set a mosque on fire and burnt everyone inside alive.
Sebastomania - Religious insanity.... Well, this kind of insanity still exists in most of Mo's followers for the past 14 centuries...
Well, I guess it would be safe to say that had MO not been there, probably these mental disorders would not even have been discovered. The science of Psychiatry is highly indebted to Mohammed, the prophet of Islam, for giving them so much of study material. How about setting up a mental asylum in his name???
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Believe or die...
Galileo very wisely and accurately said, “I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use.” But then the Quran (oops, I mean the self proclaimed prophet MO) says, “O ye who believe! Ask not questions about things which, if made plain to you, may cause you trouble. But if ye ask about things when the Qur'an is being revealed, they will be made plain to you, Allah will forgive those: for Allah is Oft-forgiving, Most Forbearing. Some people before you did ask such questions, and on that account lost their faith.” Whether you like it or not, but one has to give him full credit for being the smartest man on the face of the earth, or rather in history. He actually managed to make people stick to his illogical, senseless, cruel, evil cult centuries after his death. Why do you think Islam is widely spread?
According to the Quran and Hadeeth, a Murtad (apostate) is a person who leaves Islam openly, whereas a Munafiq (hypocrite) is someone who pretends to be a Muslim when he is not one anymore. Why would anyone pretend to be a Muslim when is not one anymore? Obviously because he loves life more than death, unlike the so called Jihads who claim to love just the opposite. In Quran 3:90-91 it says, “Lo! Those who disbelieve after their (profession of) belief, and afterward grow violent in disbelief: their repentance will not be accepted. And such are those who are astray. Lo! Those who disbelieve, and die in disbelief, the (whole) earth full of gold would not be accepted from such a one if it were offered as a ransom (for his soul). Theirs will be a painful doom and they will have no helpers.” Quran 4:89: “They long that ye should disbelieve even as they disbelieve, that ye may be upon a level (with them). So choose not friends from them till they forsake their homes in the way of Allah; if they turn back (to enmity) then take them and kill them wherever ye find them, and choose neither friend nor helper from among them.” Quran 5:54: “O ye who believe! if any from among you turn back from his Faith, soon will Allah produce a people whom He will love as they will love Him,- lowly with the believers, mighty against the rejecters, fighting in the way of Allah, and never afraid of the reproaches of such as find fault. That is the grace of Allah, which He will bestow on whom He pleases. And Allah encompassed all, and He knoweth all things.” Quran 9:66: “Make ye no excuses: ye have rejected Faith after ye had accepted it. If we pardon some of you, we will punish others amongst you, for that they are in sin.” Quran 9:73-74: “O Prophet! Strive against the disbelievers and the hypocrites! Be harsh with them. Their ultimate abode is hell, a hapless journey's end. They swear by Allah that they said nothing (wrong), yet they did say the word of disbelief, and did disbelieve after their Surrender (to Allah). And they purposed that which they could not attain, and they sought revenge only that Allah by His messenger should enrich them of His bounty. If they repent it will be better for them; and if they turn away, Allah will afflict them with a painful doom in the world and the Hereafter, and they have no protecting friend nor helper in the earth.” Quran 88:21-24: “Therefore do remind, for you are only a reminder. You are not a watcher over them; but whoever turns back and disbelieves, Allah will chastise him with the greatest chastisement.”
The Quran does not say clearly whether the apostate should be killed or spared, but as we all know, whatever the Quran lacked, the hadeeth more or less makes up for it. According to Sahih Bukhari (4:52:260): “Narrated Ikrima: Ali burnt some people and this news reached Ibn 'Abbas, who said, "Had I been in his place I would not have burnt them, as the Prophet said, 'don’t punish (anybody) with Allah's Punishment.' No doubt, I would have killed them, for the Prophet said, 'If somebody (a Muslim) discards his religion, kill him.' Sahih Bukhari (9:83:17): “Narrated 'Abdullah: Allah's Apostle said, "The blood of a Muslim who confesses that none has the right to be worshipped but Allah and that I am His Apostle, cannot be shed except in three cases: In Qisas for murder, a married person who commits illegal sexual intercourse and the one who reverts from Islam (apostate) and leaves the Muslims." Sahih Bukhari (9:89:271): Narrated Abu Musa: A man embraced Islam and then reverted back to Judaism. Mu'adh bin Jabal came and saw the man with Abu Musa. Mu'adh asked, "What is wrong with this (man)?" Abu Musa replied, "He embraced Islam and then reverted back to Judaism." Mu'adh said, "I will not sit down unless you kill him (as it is) the verdict of Allah and His Apostle.”
These and many other similar hadeeths from various sources prove beyond any doubt that the Islamic Shariah punishment for apostasy is execution. This is precisely the reason why I have to hide my apostasy for the rest of my life and I have to keep on pretending to be a Muslim among other Muslims. Trust me, it is not an easy task, especially since I am not a Muslim anymore and I do not agree with anything which Islam says. It was pretty difficult being a practicing Muslim for the last 35 years, but now it is even harder. Some of my well wishers here on my blog suggested that I speak to my family about my apostasy and take their advice, but little do they know that my parents love their religion, especially their ideal perfect human being, the prophet of Islam Mohammed, more than they love their own daughter. They would not even think twice before disowning me for life, that is, if they do not kill me first in a fit of rage, which is pretty likely, come to think of it. I say this because once a couple of years ago, when I was pretty much a Muslim, I was reading “Infidel” by Ayaan Hirsi Ali when my mother caught me reading it. She just read the introduction and got mad at me for even reading such a book. She said if any of my children did such a thing, I would kill her/him and then report myself to the police, I won’t mind even going to prison for such a crime because this is something which Allah and his prophet has ordered us to do. These were her very own words, so there is no way I can confide about my apostasy to anyone, especially my parents.
It means that I have two options... Either I should remain a closeted apostate for the rest of my life so that I don’t have to lose my loved ones, or I should just move to a western country and ask for asylum. It is probably the most difficult decision of my life, and so far I have not been able to come to any conclusion. The question that really baffles me is how anyone in their right senses could actually believe in Islam; it is the most illogical religion in the world. In fact, whenever I think of those 35 years I lived as a believing Muslim, I cannot but help feel anger, acute anger at Mohammed, the system, the society, and my family for making me follow something so sinister and evil, but most of all, I feel angry at myself for being such a fool. I mean, I always prided myself for being smart, educated, intelligent, intellectual and worldly, so how could I be so blind? I feel so angry sometimes that I actually contemplate suicide, because nothing in this world makes sense anymore. If the core of my belief was false, then is anything really true? I still get panic attacks and nightmares. I feel like crying all the time and I feel so alienated from my friends and family. The only solace in my otherwise meaningless existence is my blog, because I have so many friends and well wishers who love and support me in what I am doing. It helps me drag myself out of bed every morning. It really has given a new dimension to my life, and I just hope that it keeps on inspiring me in the future as well.
In my next blog, I will write about why Muslim men are so happy being Muslims, and how this religion caters to all their whims and fancies. It is totally a misogynistic doctrine which is a living nightmare for women. Till then, please keep on reading and commenting… Love you all…
According to the Quran and Hadeeth, a Murtad (apostate) is a person who leaves Islam openly, whereas a Munafiq (hypocrite) is someone who pretends to be a Muslim when he is not one anymore. Why would anyone pretend to be a Muslim when is not one anymore? Obviously because he loves life more than death, unlike the so called Jihads who claim to love just the opposite. In Quran 3:90-91 it says, “Lo! Those who disbelieve after their (profession of) belief, and afterward grow violent in disbelief: their repentance will not be accepted. And such are those who are astray. Lo! Those who disbelieve, and die in disbelief, the (whole) earth full of gold would not be accepted from such a one if it were offered as a ransom (for his soul). Theirs will be a painful doom and they will have no helpers.” Quran 4:89: “They long that ye should disbelieve even as they disbelieve, that ye may be upon a level (with them). So choose not friends from them till they forsake their homes in the way of Allah; if they turn back (to enmity) then take them and kill them wherever ye find them, and choose neither friend nor helper from among them.” Quran 5:54: “O ye who believe! if any from among you turn back from his Faith, soon will Allah produce a people whom He will love as they will love Him,- lowly with the believers, mighty against the rejecters, fighting in the way of Allah, and never afraid of the reproaches of such as find fault. That is the grace of Allah, which He will bestow on whom He pleases. And Allah encompassed all, and He knoweth all things.” Quran 9:66: “Make ye no excuses: ye have rejected Faith after ye had accepted it. If we pardon some of you, we will punish others amongst you, for that they are in sin.” Quran 9:73-74: “O Prophet! Strive against the disbelievers and the hypocrites! Be harsh with them. Their ultimate abode is hell, a hapless journey's end. They swear by Allah that they said nothing (wrong), yet they did say the word of disbelief, and did disbelieve after their Surrender (to Allah). And they purposed that which they could not attain, and they sought revenge only that Allah by His messenger should enrich them of His bounty. If they repent it will be better for them; and if they turn away, Allah will afflict them with a painful doom in the world and the Hereafter, and they have no protecting friend nor helper in the earth.” Quran 88:21-24: “Therefore do remind, for you are only a reminder. You are not a watcher over them; but whoever turns back and disbelieves, Allah will chastise him with the greatest chastisement.”
The Quran does not say clearly whether the apostate should be killed or spared, but as we all know, whatever the Quran lacked, the hadeeth more or less makes up for it. According to Sahih Bukhari (4:52:260): “Narrated Ikrima: Ali burnt some people and this news reached Ibn 'Abbas, who said, "Had I been in his place I would not have burnt them, as the Prophet said, 'don’t punish (anybody) with Allah's Punishment.' No doubt, I would have killed them, for the Prophet said, 'If somebody (a Muslim) discards his religion, kill him.' Sahih Bukhari (9:83:17): “Narrated 'Abdullah: Allah's Apostle said, "The blood of a Muslim who confesses that none has the right to be worshipped but Allah and that I am His Apostle, cannot be shed except in three cases: In Qisas for murder, a married person who commits illegal sexual intercourse and the one who reverts from Islam (apostate) and leaves the Muslims." Sahih Bukhari (9:89:271): Narrated Abu Musa: A man embraced Islam and then reverted back to Judaism. Mu'adh bin Jabal came and saw the man with Abu Musa. Mu'adh asked, "What is wrong with this (man)?" Abu Musa replied, "He embraced Islam and then reverted back to Judaism." Mu'adh said, "I will not sit down unless you kill him (as it is) the verdict of Allah and His Apostle.”
These and many other similar hadeeths from various sources prove beyond any doubt that the Islamic Shariah punishment for apostasy is execution. This is precisely the reason why I have to hide my apostasy for the rest of my life and I have to keep on pretending to be a Muslim among other Muslims. Trust me, it is not an easy task, especially since I am not a Muslim anymore and I do not agree with anything which Islam says. It was pretty difficult being a practicing Muslim for the last 35 years, but now it is even harder. Some of my well wishers here on my blog suggested that I speak to my family about my apostasy and take their advice, but little do they know that my parents love their religion, especially their ideal perfect human being, the prophet of Islam Mohammed, more than they love their own daughter. They would not even think twice before disowning me for life, that is, if they do not kill me first in a fit of rage, which is pretty likely, come to think of it. I say this because once a couple of years ago, when I was pretty much a Muslim, I was reading “Infidel” by Ayaan Hirsi Ali when my mother caught me reading it. She just read the introduction and got mad at me for even reading such a book. She said if any of my children did such a thing, I would kill her/him and then report myself to the police, I won’t mind even going to prison for such a crime because this is something which Allah and his prophet has ordered us to do. These were her very own words, so there is no way I can confide about my apostasy to anyone, especially my parents.
It means that I have two options... Either I should remain a closeted apostate for the rest of my life so that I don’t have to lose my loved ones, or I should just move to a western country and ask for asylum. It is probably the most difficult decision of my life, and so far I have not been able to come to any conclusion. The question that really baffles me is how anyone in their right senses could actually believe in Islam; it is the most illogical religion in the world. In fact, whenever I think of those 35 years I lived as a believing Muslim, I cannot but help feel anger, acute anger at Mohammed, the system, the society, and my family for making me follow something so sinister and evil, but most of all, I feel angry at myself for being such a fool. I mean, I always prided myself for being smart, educated, intelligent, intellectual and worldly, so how could I be so blind? I feel so angry sometimes that I actually contemplate suicide, because nothing in this world makes sense anymore. If the core of my belief was false, then is anything really true? I still get panic attacks and nightmares. I feel like crying all the time and I feel so alienated from my friends and family. The only solace in my otherwise meaningless existence is my blog, because I have so many friends and well wishers who love and support me in what I am doing. It helps me drag myself out of bed every morning. It really has given a new dimension to my life, and I just hope that it keeps on inspiring me in the future as well.
In my next blog, I will write about why Muslim men are so happy being Muslims, and how this religion caters to all their whims and fancies. It is totally a misogynistic doctrine which is a living nightmare for women. Till then, please keep on reading and commenting… Love you all…
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Why do Muslims despise Jews so much?
According to the Merriam Webster online dictionary, the term ‘Zionist’ is defined as “An international movement originally for the establishment of a Jewish national or religious community in Palestine and later for the support of modern Israel”. So when I said in my last post that I have always been a Zionist, I meant that I have always supported Israel and the Jews, and I am sure my statement was pretty clear. Then where did this come from?
I have an Egyptian colleague who recently went on a trip to Europe with his family. During one of the train journeys, his 7-year-old daughter got friendly with a similar aged American girl on the train, and then both the parents also introduced themselves since they had a few hours more to go. After a few minutes of casual conversation, my colleague found out that they were Jewish Americans. According to his own admission, he said “Shakila, as soon as I found out that they were Jewish, I had this sudden urge to push them all out of the train”. To say that I was shocked beyond belief is an understatement. I just asked him, “Why, Ahmed? Were they not nice people?” To that he replied: “They seemed nice in the beginning before I found out their true identity, but once I did, I just could continue making idle conversation with them, nor could I let my daughter play with their girl, so I just pulled my wife and kids away from them and moved to a different compartment of the train.” So as you can see, this is the kind of hatred that many Muslims, especially Arabs, harbor in their hearts against the Jews. Why do they despise them so much that they don’t even recognize them as human beings? Well, of course, the answer lies in the book of all evils, the Holy Quran… Here is a snapshot of what the revered & sacred book of the Muslims says about their worst enemies.
Kai56 | January 6, 2012 8:54 PM | ReplyWhat do you mean by that, Kai56? Can you please be more specific why you rendered me with such delightful adjectives?
come on you have got to be kidding me
jew and zionist not same thing you dumb bitch
I have an Egyptian colleague who recently went on a trip to Europe with his family. During one of the train journeys, his 7-year-old daughter got friendly with a similar aged American girl on the train, and then both the parents also introduced themselves since they had a few hours more to go. After a few minutes of casual conversation, my colleague found out that they were Jewish Americans. According to his own admission, he said “Shakila, as soon as I found out that they were Jewish, I had this sudden urge to push them all out of the train”. To say that I was shocked beyond belief is an understatement. I just asked him, “Why, Ahmed? Were they not nice people?” To that he replied: “They seemed nice in the beginning before I found out their true identity, but once I did, I just could continue making idle conversation with them, nor could I let my daughter play with their girl, so I just pulled my wife and kids away from them and moved to a different compartment of the train.” So as you can see, this is the kind of hatred that many Muslims, especially Arabs, harbor in their hearts against the Jews. Why do they despise them so much that they don’t even recognize them as human beings? Well, of course, the answer lies in the book of all evils, the Holy Quran… Here is a snapshot of what the revered & sacred book of the Muslims says about their worst enemies.
Qur'an 2:61These are just a few of the verses in the Quran which depict the Jews as a sub human species. There are a lot more such verses about them, as well as about the Christians, the Sabians (not sure what that really means) the pagans, the Zoroastrians... In fact, according to the Quran and Mohammed or Allah (they are one and the same, as everyone knows), Muslims are supposed to hate everyone and everything that is not Muslim, but Jews are on the top of that hate list. Do you know why? It is pretty simple, actually. They are smart, intelligent people and they did not buy Mo's cock-and-bull story about some angel coming down and giving him the message from God and making him a prophet. He just could not digest the fact that no matter how hard he tried to sell his story, the Jews were not buying it. Period.. So how did he retaliate? He got his Allah to send down derogatory verses against the Jews, and unfortunately his followers were dumb enough to believe that the kind and merciful God would actually hate the very own people he created. How could God say such cruel things about his most special people? His chosen ones? If only Mo's followers had a little more common sense, but alas, for the last 14 centuries, Muslims are blinded by the hatred and rage, which has been absorbed into their very souls against the Jews. The only way to overcome that is to liberate oneself from the evil clutches of Islam.
"Humiliation and wretchedness were stamped on the Jews and they were visited with Allah's wrath."
Qur'an 4:44
"Have you not considered those to whom a portion of the Book has been given? They traffic in error and desire that you should go astray. But Allah has full knowledge of your enemies. Of the Jews there are those who displace words from their (right) places, saying, 'We hear and we disobey' with a twist of their tongues they slander Faith.... Allah has cursed them for disbelief."
Qur'an 4:47
"O you People of the Book to whom the Scripture has been given, believe in what We have (now) revealed, confirming and verifying what was possessed by you, before We destroy your faces beyond all recognition, turning you on your backs, and curse you as We cursed the Sabbath-breakers, for the decision of Allah Must be executed."
Qur'an 4:160
"For the iniquity of the Jews We made unlawful for them certain (foods) in that they hindered many from Allah's Way, that they took usury, though they were forbidden, and that they devoured men's wealth on false pretenses, We have prepared for those among them who reject [Islamic] Faith a painful doom."
Qur'an 5:59
"Say: 'People of the Book! Do you disapprove of us for no other reason than that we believe in Allah, and the revelation that has come to us and that which came before?' Say: 'Shall I point out to you something much worse than this by the treatment it received from Allah? Those who incurred the curse of Allah and His wrath, those of whom He transformed into apes and swine."
Qur'an 2:64
"But you [Jews] went back on your word and were lost losers. So become apes, despised and hated. We made an example out of you."
Qur'an 33:26
"Allah made the Jews leave their homes by terrorizing them so that you killed some and made many captive. And He made you inherit their lands, their homes, and their wealth. He gave you a country you had not traver
Qur'an 59:14
"The Jews are devoid of sense. There is a grievous punishment awaiting them. Satan tells them not to believe so they will end up in Hell."
Qur'an 4:55
"Sufficient for the Jew is the Flaming Fire!"
Qur'an 88:1
"Has the narration reached you of the overwhelming (calamity)? Some faces (all disbelievers, Jews and Christians) that Day, will be humiliated, downcast, scorched by the burning fire, while they are made to drink from a boiling hot spring."
Qur'an 59:14
"They [Jews] will not fight against you save in fortified townships. Their hostility and hatred amongst themselves is strong: you would think they were united, but their hearts they are divided. That is because these [Jews] are a people devoid of sense."
Qur'an 5:13
"But because of their breach of their covenant We cursed the Jews, and made their hearts grow hard. They change the words from their (right) places [the illiterate prophet pronounced] and forget and abandon a good part of the message that was sent them. Nor will you cease to find deceit in them. And because of their breaking their covenant We have cursed them. They altered words from their context and they neglected a portion of the message they were reminded of."
Qur'an 5:41
"Or it be among the Jews, men who will listen to any lie. They change the context of the words from their (right) times and places.... For them there is disgrace in this world, and in the Hereafter a heavy punishment.""
Qur'an 5:42
"They are fond of listening to falsehood, of devouring anything forbidden; they are greedy for illicit gain!"
Qur'an 5:44
"It was We who revealed the Torah. By its standard the prophets judged the Jews, and the prophets bowed (in Islam) to Allah's will, surrendering. For the rabbis and priests: to them was entrusted the protection of Allah's Scripture Book; they were witnesses of it. Therefore fear not men, but fear Me, and sell not My revelations for a miserable price."
Qur'an 5:64
"The Jews say: 'Allah's hands are fettered.' Be their hands tied up and be they accursed for the blasphemy they utter. Nay, both His hands are widely outstretched, giving [Muslims Jewish booty] as He pleases. Amongst them we have placed enmity and hatred till the Day of Doom. Every time they kindle the fire of war, Allah does extinguish it. But they strive to do mischief on earth."
Qur'an 98:1
"Those among the People of the Book, who disbelieve and are idolaters, would never have been freed from their false religion if the Clear Proofs had not come to them. An Apostle of Allah came reading out of hallowed pages.... They were commanded to serve Allah exclusively, fulfilling their devotional obligations, and paying the zakat. Surely the unbelievers and idolaters from the People of the Book will abide in the Fire of Hell. They are the worst of creatures."
Qur'an 5:78
"Curses were pronounced on the unbelievers, the Children of Israel who rejected Islam, by the tongues of David and of Jesus because they disobeyed and rebelled."
Qur'an 5:80
"You see many of them allying themselves with the unbelieving infidels. Vile indeed are their souls. Allah's wrath is on them, and in torment will they abide."
Qur'an 5:81
"If only they had believed in Allah, in the Prophet, and in what had been revealed to him."
Qur'an 5:82
"You will find the Jews and disbelievers [defined as Christians in 5:73] the most vehement in hatred for the Muslims."
Qur'an 2:59
"We sent a plague upon the Jews from heaven, for their evil-doing."
Qur'an 17:7
"We shall rouse Our (Muslim) slaves to shame and ravage you (Jews), disfiguring your faces. They will enter the Temple as before and destroy, laying to waste all that they conquer."
Qur'an 59:14
"They are a divided people devoid of sense. There is a grievous punishment awaiting them. Satan tells them not to believe so both of them will end up in Hell."
Qur'an 59:2
"It was He [Allah] who drove the [Jewish] People of the Book from their [Medina] homes and into exile. They refused to believe. You did not think that they would go away. And they imagined that their settlement would protect them against Allah. But Allah's [actually Muhammad's] (torment) came at them from where they did not suspect and terrorized them. Their homes were destroyed. So learn a lesson O men who have eyes. This is My warning. Had Allah not decreed the expulsion of the Jews, banishing them into the desert, He would certainly have punished them in this world, and in the next they shall taste the torment of Hell Fire."
Qur'an 2:40
"O Children of Israel, remember the favors I bestowed on you. So keep My Covenant so that I fulfil your covenant. Fear Me. And believe in what I sent down, confirming and verifying the Scripture which you possess already."
Qur'an 2:41
"Be not the first to deny or sell My Verses for a small price; and fear Me, and Me alone." [Another translation reads:] "Part not with My Revelations for a trifling price, getting a small gain by selling My Verses."
Qur'an 2:43
"[Jews] Perform prayer; pay the zakat tax; bow down and prostrate yourself with Ar-Raki'un (the obedient bowers). You read, recite, and study the Scripture. Why don't you understand? Nay, seek [Islamic prostration] prayer: It is indeed hard, heavy, and exacting, except for those who obey in submission."
Qur'an 2:59
"The [Jewish] transgressors changed and perverted the word from that which had been spoken to them to a word distorted; so We sent a plague upon them from heaven, for their evil-doing."
Qur'an 2:61
"Humiliation and wretchedness were stamped upon the Jews and they were visited with wrath from Allah. That was because they disbelieved Allah's Proofs, Signs and Verses and killed the prophets. They disobeyed and rebelled."
Qur'an 2:64
"But you [Jews] went back on your word and were lost losers. You know that you have broken the sanctity of the Sabbath, so We said: 'Become monkeys despised and hated.' We made this punishment an example and a warning for those who fear Allah."
Qur'an 2:79
"But woe to the Jews who fake the Scriptures and say, 'This is from God,' so that they might earn some profit thereby.' And woe to them for what their hands have written, and woe to them for what they earn from it.'"
Qur'an 2:80
"Yet they (Jews) say: 'The Fire will not touch us for more than a few days...but they are enclosed in error and are inmates of Hell."
Qur'an 2:85
"Do you [Jews] believe a part of the Book and reject a part? There is no reward for them who so act but disgrace in the world, and on the Day of Doom, the severest of punishment...their torment will never decrease!"
Qur'an 2:89
"The Book was sent to them (the Jews) by Allah verifying and confirming what had been revealed to them already (the Torah and Gospel). They used to pray for victory over the unbelievers - and even though they recognized it when it came to them, they renounced it. The curse of Allah be on those who deny!"
Qur'an 2:101
"When there came a messenger from Allah confirming what was with them, a party of the people of the (Torah and Gospel) Scripture Book fling away the Book of Allah, tossing it behind their backs, as if they did not know!"
Qur'an 2:109
"Quite a number of the People of the Book wish they could turn you [Muslim] (people) back to infidelity after you have believed [submitted], through selfish envy, even after the Truth has become manifest to them. Indulge them until Allah issues his orders."
Qur'an 59:2
"It was Allah who drove the (Jewish) People from their [Yathrib] homes and into exile. They refused to believe. They imagined that their strongholds would protect them against Allah. But Allah's Torment came at them from where they did not suspect. He terrorized them. Their homes were destroyed. So learn a lesson. This is My warning. Had I not decreed the expulsion of the Jews, banishing them to the desert, I would have punished them. They shall taste the torment of Hell Fire." Qur'an 59:4 "That is because they resisted Allah and His Messenger. If any one resists Allah, verily Allah is severe in Punishment."
Qur'an 59:6
"What Allah gave as booty to His Messenger, He has taken away from the Jews. Allah gives His Messenger Lordship over whom He will. Whatever booty Allah has given to Muhammad and taken away from the (Jewish) people of the townships, belongs to Allah and to His Apostle."
Qur'an 59:14
"The Jews will not unite and fight against you except from behind walls. They hate themselves. You would think they were united, but their hearts are divided. That is because these [Jews] are a people devoid of sense. Like those who recently preceded them [the Meccans at Badr], they [the Jews who were just sent into the desert to die] have tasted the evil result of their conduct. And for them a grievous punishment."
Qur'an 59:16
"They [the Jews] are like Satan when he tells man, 'Not to believe,' When (man) denies, Satan says, 'I have nothing to do with you. I fear Allah, the Lord of men and jinn!'"
Qur'an 59:17
"Both [Jews and Satan] will go into the Fire of Hell, dwelling therein forever. Such is the reward of the Zalimun (disbelievers and polytheists)."
Qur'an 62:5
"The likeness of those who are entrusted with the Taurat (Torah), who subsequently failed in those (obligations), is that of an ass which carries huge books (but understands them not). Wretched is the likeness of folk who deny the Verses of Allah."
Qur'an 62:6
"Say: 'You Jews! If you think that you are friends to Allah, to the exclusion of (other) men, then desire death, if you are truthful!' But never will they long (for death), because of what their hands have done before them! Allah knows well the polytheists! Say: 'The Death from which you flee will truly overtake you.'"
Qur'an 3:65
"You People of the Book! Why dispute you about Abraham, when the Law and the Gospel were not revealed till after him? Have you no understanding? Ah! You are those who fell to disputing (even) in matters of which you had some knowledge! But why dispute in matters of which you have no knowledge? It is Allah Who knows, and you who know not!"
Qur'an 3:67
"Abraham was not a Jew nor yet a Christian; but he was a true Muslim, surrendered to Allah (which is Islam), and he joined not gods with Allah."
Qur'an 3:77
"As for those who sell for a small price the covenant and faith they owe to Allah and their own plighted word for a small price, they shall have no portion in the Hereafter. Nor will Allah speak to them or look at them on the Day of Judgment, nor will He cleanse them: They shall have a grievous torment, a painful doom. There is among them a section who distort the Book with their tongues. (As they read) you would think it is from the Book, but it is not from the Book; and they say, 'That is from God,' but it is not from Allah: It is they who tell a lie against Allah, and (well) they know it!"
Qur'an 3:84
"Say (Muhammad): 'We believe in Allah and that which is revealed to us and that which was revealed unto Abraham and Ishmael, Isaac and Jacob and the tribes [of Israel], and in (the Books) given to Moses, Jesus, and the prophets, from their Lord. We make no distinction between any of them, and unto Him we have surrendered, bowing our will (in Islam).'"
Qur'an 3:85
"If anyone desires a religion other than Islam (Surrender), never will it be accepted of him; and in the Hereafter He will be in the ranks of those who are losers." Qur'an 3:87 "Of such the reward is that on them (rests) the curse of Allah, of His angels, and of all men, all together. In that will they dwell; nor will their penalty of doom be lightened."
Qur'an 33:26
"Allah took down the People of the Scripture Book. He cast terror into their hearts. Some you slew, and some you made prisoners. And He made you heirs of their lands, their houses, and their goods, giving you a land which you had not traversed before." [Version two:] "And He drove the People of the Scripture down from their homes and cast panic into their hearts. Some you killed, and you made some captive. And He caused you to inherit their farms, houses, wealth, and land you have not trodden."
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